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I wanted to see my husband with another woman more than I can describe--very very hot fantasy for me--to the point where we did it. I didn't feel badly during the event (flirting was nothing)--SEX is something else. I felt very strange to the point of twilight zone the next day and definite feelings of strong sadness for weeks (it's been about 5 or 6 weeks at this point). We survived but it definitely wasn't easy. The thrill wasn't worth the pain for me. However, going back to monogamy after all of that high adrenaline excitement isn't easy, either (even though we have what I consider fantastic sex lives for a married couple). So I'm not sure where the answer lies. I am still struggling with the answer; hubby is content with monogamy, which is probably the right answer for us. But nothing is written in stone anymore...