Others have suggested I make a thread on this after my posts on another thread here What Brought You Into the Lifestyle?
So here goes. I'm a single girl, 31, been in the LS since I was young, I've been very active in the LS for all these years and have a very colourful sexual history. I lost my virginity young and have been involved is most things you'd care to mention, one night stands, threesomes, parties, clubs, gangbangs, and so on. I've no idea how many partners I've had in total but I worked out on another thread it's in the 500-800 range.
I'm bisexual, prefer men for sex but I bond more with women emotionally. I've not had a boyfriend in years but I have had a couple of girlfriends.
I'm very independent and strong willed, I don't work well in relationships with having to consider and support someone other than myself. I'm also, let's face it, a slut. I love new partners, the LS, even being flirty and dressing slutty. Therefore I could never imagine being tied to one sex partner, any relationship would need to be open, with me having complete freedom.
Anyway for the above reasons relationships with men don't work out for me and frankly not many men want to be involved with me due to my specific needs, personality, and LS. I've mostly been OK with this throughout my life. But I'm not getting any younger.
The biggest concern I have is children. Believe it or not after saying all this but I'm very maternal. I've wanted 3 kids since I was a girl, and still do. The urge is getting stronger, biological clock I guess. And although I value my independence and sex life, I do still want a husband. All my friends are married, I come home to an empty house each day, and don't want to be alone forever. And if I'm to start and raise a family, I'd like to do it in a marriage.
So there we have it, my life laid out. Are there men out there who would consider marrying and having a family with someone like me? Am I too difficult? Is my past too unattractive? Should I change things about myself to move to the life I want in the future?
Tbh I don't know what I'm after from this thread. Advice on how to meet someone right for me, or how I should change myself I suppose.
I am considering starting a family as a single parent. I'm running out of time slowly to get married before having children. This could be an option?
Thanks.