I've figured it out from this first statement in this post of yours. You're one of those early internet users, who spent all their time on usenet news groups, who thinks you know more than everyone else, but in reality know very little, and must continue to attempt to convince everyone else with whom you come in contact, that you are some sort of genius, prodigal, miracle creation, whithout whom the world would suffer greatly. The most unfortunate thing I see here, is that you spend all your time trying to convince everyone else that you are right, they are wrong, and they are totally close minded to everything outside their little world of thoughts and beliefs. All the while, you are only succeeding in demonstrating that you have absolutely no ability, whatsoever, to see, hear, accept anything someone else is telling you that's outside your own little world of thoughts and beliefs. You are exactly what you seem to so completely detest about the other people posting on this site. I believe we have come to the true root of the problem. You suffer from paranoia, narcissism, and egomania. Possibly some schizophrenia mixed in as well, but certainly the first 3. Your inability to understand the emotions these create within you, and therefore your inability to cope with them, results in a classicly failing coping strategy of transferring those things you are afraid of in yourself to all those with whom you come in contact that don't fit into your little world of thoughts and beliefs. This subconsious strategy usually does, as in your case, fail to alleviate your symptoms, which only more greatly enforces your fears of failure, thereby causing you to only strengthen your self-defense mechanisms, reinforcing your own vision that you must be correct and everyone else around you is insane, inept, or misguided. The worse thing about this for you is that it is all self reinforcing which causes a terrible spiralling of these feelings, until at some point you will auger into the ground and self destruct.Originally Posted by neoparadigm
Seek counseling and therapy.
Hope this has helped,