Unable to Turn Away

Have you ever been somewhere that you couldn't turn your eyes away? Good things or bad.

An accident. It is horrible but you just have to look.

A beautiful sunset where you are waiting for the sun to disappear.

A drunk walking down the street and you are waiting for him to fall.

A misfit person, do you have pity?

Do you look away from a homeless person?

Do you stare an eclipse when you know that you are hurting your eyes?

Do you enjoy sitting on the beach watching the waves?

Would you stop and watch a burning building?

The question is how did I feel watching my wife the first time. I didn't want to watch, but I had to watch.

I most certainly wanted to watch her the first time we had a Unicorn join us. It was not threatening even though she was petrified. It was very exciting for me to watch and I never turned away. I did sense unease in my wife when it was my turn to be with our new friend. I was willing to stop but I was urged to continue. We did every a meaningful talk that night. I wanted to make sure I didn't hurt any feelings. It did lead to us discussing a full swap with a couple. That led us to our unicorn inviting us to join her and someone we had met in a social setting and another couple she had played with before.

What we though was going to be our first time was canceled. Disappointment or relief?

Our first did happen. We the newbies, them, the people who have gone to resorts together. Us nervous, them excited to be our first. Them very respectful of our nerves. I am sure there had been parties in this house before. My wife and I didn't know how and what to expect other than we would be having sex with new friends which were strangers to us.

We were asked if we wanted to split up into different rooms and not watch. We decided to stay in one room all together. Nervous? You betcha. Our unicorn suggested for all to undress to ease everyone, meaning us, to not be shy. Our unicorn started by going to my wife and the other woman came to me. The two other men were just watching, My wife eased up as she was now spread open for a mouth between her legs. I was watching that while being as hard as a can remember and a tongue making me harder. Then one of those moments when I saw the husband of the woman with me take my wife's hand and guided it to his hard on. Couldn't look away. Then he put it by her face. I wanted to look away. I couldn't look away. I almost forgot that I was with a woman myself. I was watching my wife suck a cock. I could not look away. I believe I was in a zone. Maybe the Twilight Zone. The Unicorn came over to me and attempted to sit on my face and I could only remember pushing her away so I could watch my wife. It was very hard for me to watch but I had to watch. For sure I thought she was going to have him cumming in her mouth and he stopped, put on protection and entered her. I noticed we all stopped to watch. They went at it for about ten minutes and I couldn't look away. When they stopped I could swear there was applauds. I was in an out of body state. I wanted to make sure we was okay. She was.

The night got easier for me. I was no longer terrified even though I still had the need to watch her.

This may sound weird, watching her with one in her mouth was harder for me than when she was fucking. Is it more intimate to use your mouth or is that just me? That first man in her mouth I want to say was terrifying and I was relieved when they were having sex. Was that normal for a first time?

Our one and only mfm so far .. for me the initial sight of him getting her breasts out was mesmerizing .. after that it was just hot !! ?

My wife and I have had many instances where she entertained another man in my presence. If there is a 'typical' encounter, she and the man spend as much foreplay time as they wish while I watch and take photographs. Eventually they will move to intercourse. After the man has had his fill (for the moment,) my wife and I began to play. Often, the second man would join us and take her a second time.

ToeDippers, watching your wife flirt and engage another man is intoxicating. And the interest had never gone away for me.

My wife is pretty. I like looking at her when she's having sex of any kind.

I love to watch sunsets, waves, mountains and all pretty things.

I don’t stare at homeless, I help with food or a few dollars.

I won’t go to look at an accident unless I can help.

The one thing I know I can’t turn away from is watching people on a nude beach. I know you aren’t supposed to stare. Thank you for dark sunglasses. On our first trip to a nude beach I knew the etiquette was to look away. We were with people we just met on a cruise. Being very straight I was looking at both men and women, perfect bodies(not that many) and far from perfect. I stared at boobs and bums. Comparing to myself. How do you not look at a crotch fully exposed. I remember being caught looking at our new friends.

The thing I know I don’t need to see is my husband having sex. I knew he had sex with our new friend in another cabin. I enjoyed the privacy of my first time alone with a new partner. The next morning I didn’t need to see them nude in bed.

To this day which is now a few years later I don’t need or want to watch him. He on the other side says he likes watching me. I kind of get he wants to watch me with a woman. It’s diiferent. I am still not 100% into the lesbian thing. The sex I have with him watching is not as satisfying as my private sex.

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To this day which is now a few years later I don’t need or want to watch him. He on the other side says he likes watching me. I kind of get he wants to watch me with a woman. It’s diiferent. I am still not 100% into the lesbian thing...

Watching my husband have sex with another woman drove me crazy jealous, but I found I wanted more of that feeling. It also made me want to go down on him immediately afterwards and brought out my Lesbian side, first by wanting to go down on her immediately afterwards. (There was a lot of subconscious justification going on.) Now my Lesbian side is as strong as my hetero side.

Watching my husband have sex with another woman drove me crazy jealous, but I found I wanted more of that feeling. It also made me want to go down on him immediately afterwards and brought out my Lesbian side, first by wanting to go down on her immediately afterwards. (There was a lot of subconscious justification going on.) Now my Lesbian side is as strong as my hetero side.

When we first swapped I didn’t know I wanted to swap. The other wife said it was a first for them too. Before swapping I saw them both nude on a nude beach. Both were attractive but me being with her was not even a slight thought to me. The next day almost ruined everything to me. I was the only one who was uneasy with all of us having sex together. The friend who I say made love to me the night before now put a show on for my husband. Totally different and the wife who was so innocent the day before wanted to play with me. I couldn’t reciprocate.

I have loosened up over the last few years even though I prefer being alone with one partner and not have to watch my husband.