I would like to give swinging a try, as hubby and I both have fantasies of threesomes and full swaps. Hubs says he has no reservations at all in regards to me being with another man, whether we play together or solo (he has even said he is ok with me having a regular guy to play with). I wish I could say that I'm that comfortable with the idea of him with other women. While I have full confidence in my husband's love for me and his commitment to our marriage, I am terrified that I will lose him to another woman. It sucks, because I think it would be amazing to have another woman join us to fulfill his fmf fantasies, and even to watch him with another. BUT, when I try to think about this really happening I am overcome with anxiety. I just can't seem to let go of my insecurities and jealousy, even though I know that my husband loves me and would never leave me. He has also expressed a desire to have playmates when he is working out of town. That I don't think I will ever be comfortable with, as I know I will drive myself crazy wondering what and who he's doing during the week.
Sorry for rambling on, I just really want to be able to be okay with him actually touching another woman. When we talk about it, it seems so sexy and fun, but then my mind goes to worst case scenario... I might also add that I was my husband's first, and he has only been with one other woman since (I cheated several years ago and we separated for a few months ). We worked hard to rebuild our marriage and are happier as a couple than we have ever been. How can I get past my personal reservations so that we can fulfill both our fantasies??