From LAG: the person who posted the first question. THAnk you to the couple of replies I"ve gotten. I REALLY appreciate them. I'd like even more because each one is so helpful as it's slightly different. I want to clairfy on thing that I wrote. He never said, It HAD so be part of my life." Rather, he explains that it is part of who he is but often says, ."It is now who I am, just part of who I am." So, it wasn't like .... either you swiwg with me or it's a no-go. It wasn't that harsh. If anyne else can shed their view on it, I'd appreciate it. Even if it's the same Idea as the three I've gotten because each one is helpful to me. I'm scared. And, my fear isn't that he'll fall for someone else because of the sex rather that when interacting in such an intimate way with others, I fear he'll develope a spark with someone else. Yes, I could too but it's him I'm worried about. I'm just so scared although the idea that many of you veterns have about no jealous sounds like where I'd like to get, right now I'm just so scared and nonunderstanding. Help me to understand. THANKS! LAG