First time swinging went off amazing!!! Days passed and I am in a dark spot... Help...

[HornyCoupIe 1]

Hi All.

 

I hope you all are having a wonderful day. I want to start off by saying I am a 32 y/o male married to a beautiful 31 y/o female. I love her very much and have never felt so complete with anyone else. We have been together for 8 years now and she has been nothing but absolutely loyal to the T. We have 2 beautiful kids together, a home, 3 cars, perfect american dream.  I love her sexuality. It turns me on like no other. She and I used to run a cam channel together, and her own website where we sold porn I shot of her. We didn't do cheap shit either, photo shoots took hours, but we had fun and fucked in between sessions.  She treats me like no other woman has treated me and I have never once felt like she would ever leave me and still don't to this day. We have absolutely no sexual lacking's either. We are bunnies who both get satisfied. She has told me that my mind unlocks her and drops any walls she has and that I am the only man to ever make her cum from piv. Also, I know about my wife's wild past. I love it too. I love to hear the stories from when she was younger and exploring herself with others. I love fantasizing about all the guys who would jerk off to her porn. My wife and I both agree that we should be able to have fun with others sexually, but only connected emotionally to your spouse and I without a doubt agree and dont worry about her at all. I understand, we both have insatiable appetites for just plane old sex. 

 

We have been diving deeper and deeper into the lifestyle since we got together, but not till 3 weeks ago have we ever swung with another couple. We met this couple online, and we went to breakfast and go kart racing after. They are a little younger than us, a very solid couple we have spoken to for about 2 years now, off and on. They were/are perfect to get us acclimated into this world.

 

So my wife and I wake up 2 weeks after our first day meeting this other couple, and its D-day... quite literally. We have booked a hotel room that has its own pool, 1 large bed, and a place to sit. As my wife and I get ready, I can get out of my head how badly I want to see her enjoy another man. Just to see her absorbed in her sexuality. So hot. To see another man lust over her. So hot. It gets me going now. We are making dirty jokes all morning and really in a great mood of excitement, spark. We got to the place, checked in, got to the room and invited the other couple in. We started with drinks and a few games. We played strip poker and once we were all naked, spin the bottle (except no m/m as we are both straight which is perfect). My wife and I start kissing and before we know it, we are swept up in each other and the other couple in themselves. The passion of both couples was almost identical. We are very like minded people. We go on for about an hour just focusing on our own significant others when I whisper to my wife I want to see her please him. I was so happy to see everything that followed and it made me un-controllably climax. Shit happens, it was amazing, everything carried on and we all had an amazing day. 

 

My wife and I shower before going home and I wash her very romantically, I was so happy I had met my wife, someone I could share this with. Everything was swell for the next two days. My wife and I talk about the experience, joke and laugh, and rejoice together.

 

 Then out of no where, these thoughts start creeping into my head; 

 

What if I dont like it the next time? (Impossible, unless I cant stay out of my head with worry.)

 

Hey, that's my wife. (Even though I dont think I really feel this way, my wife beyond pleases me, sexually, emotionally, loyalty, I want her to be happy and get those kinky desires fulfilled that I too have, I would love to continue this with her for both our sakes.)

 

Did I just ruin my relationship? Did it just loose its validity?

 

What if I get jealous the 2nd time? (even though I encouraged my wife to enjoy herself and enjoyed watching)

 

I have spoken to her about all this and how I can be so uncomfortably worried at times, and at peace and daydreaming about it at other times. I have told her I am so confused, and that she has done nothing wrong. She has been super supportive and has told me we dont have to do it again and that we could walk away from this at any point... but my mind worries me so.... 

 

Guys and gals... What can I do to be more accepting? I was really excited to do all this... and I dont know how I got so clouded in the mean time. It really bugs me that I cant just seem to accept this is something I like, its not a breach of our relationship unless a rule of ours is broken (basically anything including messages privately)...But does this get easier with time?

 

 

 

 

[dazanconfsd 84]

I can't speak for more experienced couples, but for us it actually was easier after a few play dates. Maybe 3 total. After that I started overthinking and we slowed way down for a while. (first couple months was daily or every other day with 2 couples we met. We jumped in both feet. I think it was when we stepped back that we could take in what was going on and really appreciate the pro's and con's

 

[GoldCoCouple 4,030]

Stop overthinking it (that's my job ). Just accept it and know as long as you keep the communication open, there shouldn't be anything to worry about. It's just good times and fun, accept it.

[KatrinaandDriverX 88]

Worrying is like paying a debt that may never come due.

 

you had amazing sex. Stop punishing yourself ( let someone else do that?) Enjoy 

 

 

[TwoFunTexans 103]

I went back and forth questioning if this was something we should keep doing early on, but as I continued to see that my wife was fully committed to me and the best wingman a guy could ever have I let those feelings and questions go. Just keep communicating with your significant other and I'm sure you'll end up where I am.

[Anon321 486]

On 3/31/2021 at 11:51 PM, HornyCoupIe said:

What if I dont like it the next time? (Impossible, unless I cant stay out of my head with worry.)

 

Maybe you won't.  Just like everything else in life not 100% of your experiences will always be great.  It happens.

 

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Hey, that's my wife. (Even though I dont think I really feel this way, my wife beyond pleases me, sexually, emotionally, loyalty, I want her to be happy and get those kinky desires fulfilled that I too have, I would love to continue this with her for both our sakes.)

It seems like you're already past this part.  You might get that feeling but it seems like you'll get over it quickly.

 

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Did I just ruin my relationship? Did it just loose its validity?

I think the both of you have already decided that this wouldn't ruin your relationship or lose its validity.  The other side of it is that you are actually strengthening your relationship.

 

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What if I get jealous the 2nd time? (even though I encouraged my wife to enjoy herself and enjoyed watching)

Anything can trigger jealousy - a guy has a bigger dick than you, your wife orgasms several times with some guy, another guy shoots a massive load of jizz on your wife's face, some younger guy can fuck your wife several times and hours longer than you can, etc.  I can get a bit jealous from time to time but it doesn't last and it's certainly not something that carry with me.

[Numex 2,199]

On 3/31/2021 at 9:51 PM, HornyCoupIe said:

What can I do to be more accepting? I was really excited to do all this...

Think of this, you are extraordinarily lucky to have the woman that you do for your wife.  There are a large number of men who have posted here asking the question, "How can I get my wife to become open to the lifestyle in any way?"  Look at it as an adventure that you're going on together and you have a wonderful companion. 

[couplers 4,200]

For me, vigorous reclaiming sex erases any doubts that I have and makes me ready to share more.  I have become addicted to the jealousy and doubts that I get then having them erased.  It is a thrill ride that scares me, but I immediately want to go again.