My partner and I have been swinging for quite a while now, playing mainly with couples but also at parties, clubs and gangbangs. As time goes on I have come to realise that most of my pleasure derives from watching my partner enjoy other men, either singly or in groups. She is very vocal, responsive and multi-orgasmic, and a real joy to watch.
We sometimes play bareback and my greatest pleasure is the moment when a man ejaculates inside her, especially if, as often happens, she orgasms at the same time. I like her to keep his semen in her to show me as soon as possible so that I can taste their mixed juices and give her further orgasms by sucking her. I also enjoy the "different" feel of her pussy around my cock when she has been with a man (or men) already, especially when she is full of cum.
My partner very much enjoys this play (she gets lots of men and lots of orgasms!) but she is uncomfortable with my role as she considers it too close to cuckoldry. I am never humiliated by her or her men (we choose carefully) so, although I am doing "cuckold things" (like eating sperm from her vagina) I do not feel anything wrong with it and I don't feel submissive. Nevertheless, she says the thought of me *being* a cuckold reduces her enjoyment.
Am I a cuckold? Should she be worried? How can I convince her that I enjoy all the things I've mentioned but I don't feel in any way compromised by the role I enjoy so much?
Thanks,
Peter