roymiller

I grew up in the 70's looking at Playboy and Penthouse when all the centerfold models had bush. The sight of a bush always turned my head so fast it almost broke my neck at times. I think our early influences is what forms our fetishes, like being shown actual photos of a friend's brother and wife swinging when I was about 13. From that moment on, swinging was my greatest fantasy.

In addition to my comments above, I'd like to reiterate that I have no (other) homosexual tendencies. I have no desire to be romantically involved with another man. It's just about the dick and balls. When I reached puberty and my hormones were off the scale, a cousin the same age and I experimented by jerking each other off. I also had the same experience with the son of my grandparent's neighbors, again the same age as me and around the same time period as with the cousin. The neighbor boy's brother and wife were their neighbors on the other side of them, and he would take me over to his brother's house when no one was home and show me some pictures they had taken of themselves swinging. I'm guessing I was around 13. I was EXTREMELY aroused by this and it became my lifelong fantasy. So, I have fondled and jerked 2 other dicks and loved it, but my desire has always been solidly for women as for romance, love and companionship. My renewed desire for playing with a cock and balls has actually only come about in the last couple years, which has included the desire to suck a cock. Not too sure I want to have that cock come in my mouth yet or not, and I'd say at this point I'm definitely not interested in swallowing. I just want to suck one. Oh...and my cousin and I would also go outside when his mom/my aunt (who was freaking HOT) would take a bath and peek in the bathroom window on her. She would have been mid 30's in those days. Then, we would go back to his room (we slept in the same bed during sleepovers) and furiously jerk each other off. Fun times...

I have no desire whatsoever to kiss another man (in fact the thought of it is disgusting to me), snuggle with another man, and no desire to have anal sex - giving or taking, but I have always craved playing with, fondling and sucking a dick....and of course I LOVE having my dick sucked no matter who is doing the sucking. Not sure if that makes me bi-sexual or not....or just plain sexual!