I'm a 44 year old black woman living in Southern California. I've been married for 20 years and am still very happy with my husband. Sex with him is still very hot, but infrequent over the last 10 years, since our daughter was born.
Lately I've been horny all the time and I have a strong urge to live out my sexual fantasies. My husband and I like to play porn videos when we have sex. I'm very turned all by everything I see in those movies, including the bi-sexual female sex and group sex with men and women.
I experienced having sex with 2 men at once when I was in college. It was so good. I still fantasize about that and would love to do it again. I have a strong urge to also experience sex with one or two other women. I have never told my husband about these fantasies or the impulse to bring them to life.
It would be great if we could have an open discussion about this and decide to swing together, but that's a conversation I'm afraid to have with him.
I have several business trips to Indianapolis scheduled in 2005. Each trip will be about 3-4 days. It occurs to me that I could visit a swingers club and act on these fantasies, without my husband ever knowing anything about it. What he doesn't know wont hurt him. If I did it 2000 miles away, it would probably not compromise my marraige at all. I getting closer and closer to talking myself into it.
I'm not looking for anyone on this forum to condone adultory. However, I would like to know about others' first time swinging experiences. I'd like to know if it was all it was cracked up to be. I'd also like to know about what it's like for a woman on her own in one of these places.
I'd also like to know if a pretty, 44-year old black woman, with a curvaceous, plump mom's body, would even get any action in one of those places? I'd really like a reality check.