I have no idea how to ask or explain this although has anyone ever felt left out or not important or some other emotion in a play session... If so, how did you deal with it...
In a nutshell, we have played 4 times... so yes we are still new... every experience was better than the previous except for a small hiccup at the second and last one.. I love sharing my wife and seeing the pleasure on her face so it is easy to put the spotlight on my wife so that she gets the attention... although once everyone has satisfied her and themselves... I am left frustrated... Now it is not that anyone hasn't touched me but also not like I played any roll to anyone either! I know I am not bad looking and also, not that hot where I am every couples dream, BUT I am not the person that would in any way force anyone to do something they don't want to but neither will I stop them when try to play with me... But the problem is that I am feeling so insecure there after that even when my wife gives me the shoulder, I feel completely rejected! How do I make sense of this and deal with it so it doesn't effect future play, could it simply be because it was the same couple and even though I know the answer to that, must I try and figure out how to prevent that from effecting our next play!
Although I mentioned this to my wife immediately at each session and we discussed this afterwords, is my mind playing the most fcd-up game with me where I am starting to doubt myself as in every aspect and if I am just maybe meant to sit and watch everyone... So yes I am open to any advice...