Me&HopefullyHer

I honestly don't think it was any kind of intentional test. I just think it was kind of buyer's remorse. Like, once things happened she was like oh shit, what just happened!? I guess I just want to be very careful and make sure we are both on the same page COMPLETELY. And I really think that doing something together instead of separately would make a big difference.

First I want to apologize for what might wind up being a rambling post but I will try to get my point across succintly. This is my first post here and LS is new to me/us (kind of). My wife and I have a great relationship, especially sexually. We've been married over 25 years and love each other completely. About 18 or 19 years ago we had been discussing the idea of swinging and 3somes/4somes, etc. After fantasizing about it for awhile we started to discuss actually doing it. My wife was the one who suggested that she might be more comfortable if we played separately at first to kind of test the waters. My preference was to do this together as it was an experience I wanted us to enjoy together. But I agreed. As it turned out I was the one who had the first opportunity. The first step was having drinks with someone I knew and telling her what I was interested in and that my wife was completely ok with it, etc. That night we just talked, flirted and kissed. When I got home my wife and I talked about it all, both got very worked up and had great sex. Probably a couple weeks after that is when the "real deal" was going to happen. Again, my wife was completely supportive and told me to relax and have fun. Which I did. Here's where it went wrong. The next day when we began to talk about it (I was excited for us to share this) her response was, I can't believe you did it." Needless to say, I was floored. It took us awhile to get past all of it but our love as well as our sex lives together is great. Fast forwarding to the present... We've begun to bring up the subject again (just flirtatiously, semi-jokingly right now) but I've let her know that I am interested in doing things. I'm specifically interested in MFM/MMF. I've let her know that I would truly enjoy seeing her go down on another guy (maybe more?) And that yes (even though I know it's often frowned upon in the LS from what I've read) I would also like to explore my bi side as the 3 of us played. She has said (half jokingly) that it's all up to me to set it up. So my big concerns are 1- I would hate to have a repeat of when we tried something all those years ago and have her regret it all and 2-I know that my interests in MMF could be a bit if a hindrance in finding someone to play with. Advice? Thoughts?