Okay..so after our wedding two years ago, I was curious about swinging and wanted to try it out. After a few sessions I didn't seem that into it. Maybe it was a jealously factor or that I was not satisfied by it. I tried to tell my husband this but he seemed very into it so I went along just for his pleasure and had sex with guys who I could hardly stand because my husband hit it off with the lady.
The other day we were vacationing in Greece and he wanted to try out the swinging club there. I was totally tired after the flight and tried to say no, but he was like you want to screw my happiness. I wanted to try stuff with you etc. So we went and ended up watching few other couples having sex.
So my husband gets horny and wants to join the orgy, so we get undressed. There was this other Spanish couple and we were next to them and then my husband suddenly asks me if I want to suck her. I say no but he still pushes me into her and asks me to do it while he fingers her. I actually feel betrayed by this because we have no idea who the other couple is. I don't think she was comfortable in it either and I feel my husband prioritizes swinging more than me. I felt used that day and when confronted about it he says I don't go out of my way to do stuff for him, and I am selfish. I am literally disgusted by his desperate behaviour and I don't know what to do.
Please help me see reason in this and that I am right to feel angry and offended.