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genivieve

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About genivieve

  • Rank
    Just Getting Started
  • Birthday 09/01/1975

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  • Relationship Status
    married
  • Location
    GA
  • Swinging Experience
    1 year
  • Anniversary
    xx/xx/xxxx
  1. So I wanted to do a update. My silence was due to the huge amount of stress. I could barely cope the last month. I think one poster referred to some of my behavior as narcissistic to which I would like to respond. My husband and I are very hyper, fast, conquering people. People seem to flock and attach themselves to us almost wanting a piece of what we have. We rarely are ever told no with anything, we just sort of float through an easy life. At our age 41/47 we are use to getting what we want when we want. If this represents a narcissistic behavior than so be it. It is what is it, and we can't change it. That being said I have been with my husband since I was 14 years old. We are together 24/7. The only time I spent apart was when I gave birth at 15, and signed myself out of the hospital the following morning. In the last couple of months we started pulling apart from each other and going separate ways. I realize now with our regular M from our MFMs it was becoming an infatuation and he did occupy my thoughts more than my husband. Something no man has ever done. My way of thinking always has been no man could ever match my husband's status/level. My husband saw this and was becoming jealous. He did try to tell me several times, but my own selfishness stepped in. And I am by no means making what he did acceptable. In fact it was his cheating that has almost ruined us. I feel a huge void in our relationship and I don't ever think I can trust him whole hearted like I did prior. He's a flirt by nature and it never bothered me, now I find myself beyond irritated and snapping at him. Which will ease with time I suppose. There are many times during the day I will just look at him when he doesn't know it and wonder how the hell could he have done this to me. And then there are times where I want to seek vengeance just so he would know what it is like. But I resort to the old two wrongs don't make a right. We spent many days crying together and we both know we cannot live without each other. Pushing forward. One week after the "matter" my husband thought to bring in the regular again which was a disastrous mistake and ended bad for all of us. My husband actually exploded. We always have been open and honest even when if it does hurt the others feelings. Looking back he even hinted to me he was having a affair several times but I just did not care or pay attention. His affair was really no so good. He has spent 28yrs with me, and my performance in the bedroom is hard to match proven even with mfms we have done. So a young dumb junkie with sub par skills is more of an annoyance. He became jealous I was having such a good time during the mfm, his own cheating he states "Fucking sucked, and he spent more time trying to get it hard even after a 100mg of Viagra". And admits his affair was more of a emotional one since my head was off in other places. This brought our relationship to really bad point. After another trip to our vacation home we decided to try the MFMF game. A failure. We are far too picky and we don't like the whole wine and dine nonsense. We just want a couple to come over take your clothes off and get right to it. We could care less where you work, how many kids you got. And I really need his dominance telling me and another exactly what to do during our play. Which is hard with a fourth in the mix. Coming back from our vacation home we both are at the point to just let this go and stop doing the swing thing. At this point my sex drive is much lower (lack of food, I dropped 22lbs and stress) and we really are enjoying our sex romps much more. My husband still likes to dirty talk about having our regular in with us and what he does to me but in my heart I'm not sure if I want to go back to all that. So I guess this is the end for now.
  2. I apologize for my lack of response. My head is in the mud and I am on a bad path right now. The advice given was excellent. Thank you.
  3. First- my grandmother called me Geni, so the Genivieve spelling stuck when I was a kid. Feel free to check my name out on porn hub, I spend about 5 hours a day on it. I came here looking for help and now am being called a troll because of my lack of response. My husband and I have been feuding in the worst way. Going to our vacation home and making another big mistake has really taken its toll. There has been melt down after melt down. We love the life style but our Christian friends are pulling at us that we are sinning. His cheating has caused insecurity and lack of trust. Feelings I haven't had in at least 20 years. Moving forward I am not the typical sex addict, as I do not cheat, or jump on quick encounters. I've been trained by my husband to f#ck 3 or more times a day since I was 14 yrs old. Then one day in his 30s he could not perform like that anymore. I also suffer from PGAD. I could be standing in a grocery line and have a orgasm. They are more like "hiccups". Which is really screwed up because when having sex I find it almost difficult to orgasm, needing at least a hour of sex which is why we started the MFM
  4. I will try not to make this long. I am new but have been lurking on here for long time. My husband and I have been together 28 years. Last year we had a couple of MFFs. I have never been with anyone but my husband. We did not talk about swinging or adding another in the mix, it just happened. I really did not like the experience as I am not turned on by women. I find nothing attractive about the whole situation, but took it for the team I guess. Another additive to MFF dislike is due to my husband. I much prefer sex 2-3 times a day with masturbation 4-5 times a day. My husband is getting older so he is slowing down. We have had sex like this for about 20 years. So my mode of thinking is-- he can't or won't fuck me, but he can fuck another girl? We started last year with MFM. His idea. And I love it. I get everything I want, my husband fucks me like an animal for days after. He loves it just as much as me to the point we found a regular when we travel out of state. We both agreed we would not do this in our own state. We are too well known. I don't text the guy, I don't talk to the guy outside of our MFM meetings. I don't really even talk to the guy during the meetings. My husband directs the whole thing, and they talk around me like I don't exist and I love it. I can get what I want and not have to deal with the side shit. I don't care what he thinks or what he wants. I just follow my husband's orders. My husband started with wanting the MFF again even though I have stated I do not like it. We went to a club a couple of times to no avail as we both are very picky. He started giving me problems about our MFM to which I said I could stop all of it if he felt it was not fair. But my husband always told me to make the call when out of state. I never asked. Two months ago he developed a relationship with a local girl who has many issues. My husband has this need to help people in need. I thought nothing of it until we went out of state and he said I could go with our regular by myself to which I would never do. He finally confessed he was sleeping with this girl. I say girl because she is 23 years younger. I am so heartbroken. Everyone in our town knows. This girl is a ex heroin junkie. I read the texts. My husband was wrapped right around her fingers. Not only was he having a sexual relationship but a emotional one. Something we agreed would never happen when doing this. His whole attitude had flipped on me during that time. He blames me for not doing another MFF with him. He blames me for having a high sex drive and he feels he can't keep up. I stated I don't want to do MFM anymore and he begged me not to make that choice. He said he really loves it. Yesterday he said he understands how I hate MFFs and won't ask again. Today he is saying I should give it time and try another MFF again later down the road. I really don't know what the hell to do. I am so lost.....
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