We started swinging slowly about 3 1/2 yrs ago. Then a year ago things started going fast. Before I knew it or he knew it, we were hosting huge parties, had a few orgies, I had a several males one night, he had several too, and females too. Then we had tension after nine rally when I emotionally bonded with a fellow ex solider, a double amputee. We did not have sex. We talked for a couple of hours. I went to bed. Never seen him again. But my partner and I have had problems and tension since and we have not swung, played or really even talked about it much since.
I love him and that's fine with me. I just miss it. I enjoy men and multiple men. I have played alone since. We are not married, but we are committed. I have my home, he had his. I want him in my life. I love him. Am I wrong though for fulfilling my sexual needs? I've always been sexual and he knew this from the jump. I do not and will not deliberately hurt him. But I have needs. Am I wrong? I even go out of town to play to try to avoid him ever even finding out.
