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Haha.. So we got a really nice toy, and just played out the 2 guy scenario.. She was just going crazy.. I found myself jealous of a (rather large and pretty) piece of rubber!! I really dont think Im cut out for swinging.. Maybe just exchange porn with people .. she gets a thrill also, and its something I can live with.. Thanks again for your thoughtful advice .. cheers..

and she's a freak in bed.. 2x a day.. loves to please.. any wonder Im posessive and dont want to share? Hmm maybe my motivation is not at all to learn to share.. but to brag? an interesting thought..

You seem to know what I am thinking about very well.. Glad to have your audience So for the last 2 trips abroad she's been making me solo porn, no toys.. just her and hands.. she's very sensuous.. And she's getting better and better at it.. She cums sometimes doing it because she knows what Im thinking, and I know what she's thinking, and I write her dirty little gangbang stories , to get her going.. So the last time, she said something like 'oh you're crazy.. nobody else would care abt an old lady porn'.. she's mid 40s. So I did something stupid I think.. I lied and said I showed her porn to my 2 friends at work, one guy she knows and thinks hes hot (and i told her an independently confirmed fact that he's a size of 2 coke cans end to end.. that fucker!!). She didnt believe me , so I found 2 solo pics of dudes w. nice pieces and sent to her, as if their token of appreciation and proof. The next series of vids she sent were hotter than ever.. she was buzzing .. I could tell.. She was showing off to the 3 of us. Then she said 'fuck it, im ready lets do it'.. so at that point of course i freaked out and got hurt and told her i lied. She was angry.. but now we're ok. So the point is.. I dont think she'd get off on some anonymous ugly dudes jerking off to her. She wants some studs she knows to be hot for her.. You are right on the money there.. anyway... yes for now at least we're staying 'monogamish'.. cheers..

What a wonderful thoughtful post. Thanks for your opinion. I think you are right.. at least for me.. I know I am possessive (but I am faithful.. so it seems fair . She is also very possessive, if I slipped up she'd leave me. So for me swapping is indeed laden with possibly painful emotions.. And also, since for her it's been a fantasy since childhood, its quite possible it's rooted in something bad that happened to her, at least she thinks so... so maybe actually fulfilling it is the wrong thing to do.. So we'll keep the Pandora's box closed. for now.. You said it exactly as I think.. 'she cant unfuck a guy' if I decide it's too painful to think about. So we'll keep talking about it in fantasies, and maybe Ill keep teasing her by (pretend) showing her porn to friends.. Or maybe for real? any takers?! ...

So.. as I look around here.. I see it's a very common thing for a guy to be excited about his wife in a gang-bang.. or at least w. another guy... Can you guys share.. what is it for you? pure fun, or some twinges of pain w. excitement?? Im trying to figure it out..

Me: 50, in good shape, in gym 5days a week for 35 yrs.. She: 45, still gets stared at everywhere we go, even by 25 y.o... We have sex at least daily, most days 2x a day. She can cum 5 times (used to be 10 .. Together for 25 yrs, 100% loyal.. BUT.. She has had this fantasy, since early adolescence.. w. her and many guys.. forget psychoanalysis.. lets talk sex.. For me.. it's also a draw, it always has been my favorite porn to watch.. mfm or mmmmmfmmmmm.. the more mmm the better.. But since she told me about this fantasy, almost after we met.. it's kind of a masochistic painful jealous thing for me.. Im very possessive.. but the thought is exciting.. So I guess thats a definition of masochism? So anyway.. we talk about the gangbang fantasy, before sex to charge us up, sometimes during sex.. if I give her oral.. (makes it hard for me to tell her the stories tho' .. and it always makes her cum. And I am pretty sure she's hot to trot, for real.. but I doubt I really want to do it.. it'll be just too damaging for me.. But I do get excited seeing what it does to her.. When I am away she sends me her solo porn. HOT!! She gets hot making it, sometimes cums while taping .. Last time I lied and said I showed her porn to these 2 guys I work with that she knows.. and sent a (fake) pics of their hardons as a 'proof' that I showed it.. She got so HOT.. sent me more vids.. another 5 levels hotter. And said,.. fuck it, Im ready.. bring them home .. SO I got jealous, told her it was a lie.. she was of course pissed.. But anyway.. why am I writing all this?.. not sure.. I guess looking for a guy or a girl who knows what I am going through.. anyway.. thanks for your ear..