Hi :-)
Okay, where to begin...well, my husband and I have been married for two years, together for three overall. In all that time, I have known him to be the most vanilla man I have ever met. I am pretty kinky...but even though our sexual natures haven't matched, we still have great sex.
The thing is, I have always leaned toward wanting to do the hot wife/cuckolding thing. I am not new to it, I have experience with an ex who wanted me to cuckold him and I did, happily. (When I say cuckolding, I mean having sex with other guys either in front of him or separately. If separately then he would want to hear all about it afterward). I am the type of woman who likes to dress up very sexy and flirt with other men...I have always fantasized about cuckolding my husband, but I never even dreamed of bringing it up, because he is so reserved and buttoned-down. I have pressed him several times to tell me what his sexual fantasies are, and he has always maintained that he does not have any (which, I found hard to believe).
Well lately my sexual urges and fantasies about cuckolding my husband have gotten more intense. It isn't that I just want to cheat, I want it to turn my husband on. I have been dressing increasingly sluttier when I go out to bars (to the point where an acquaintance recently said to me "Your husband lets you go out of the house looking like that??") and then mentioning to him whenever other men flirt with me. He never acts jealous or even seems to pay attention to how I look...
Well, the other night I had a very, VERY unexpected experience. I went out by myself for a little while to see a band. I came home and we were both slightly drunk and horny. We began to fool around, and as we were, my husband started to ask if I thought his penis was too small. At first I thought he was being self-conscious, so I assured him that it was perfect. But he kept going on...about how his penis was probably too small to satisfy me and I had probably had much better and bigger sex partners in the past. I slowly started to realize what he was getting at...much to my shock. He wanted to know what was the biggest cock I ever had, and wanted me to describe my past sexual experiences in detail as we were having sex...I was BLOWN AWAY because he's never said anything or acted this way before. I played right along although I held back a lot, since I was a little bit in shock. But he seemed SO turned on and kept encouraging me to talk about other men I'd been with. I have never seen that side of him before, not even close.
But then as soon as he came and we were done, he instantly seemed ashamed and embarrassed. We didn't talk any more about it and just went to bed. I can't stop thinking about it, though...does it sound as if he secretly fantasizes about being cuckolded?? And how do I proceed with this? Do I bring it up again, or just wait for him to bring it up? He definitely seems uncomfortable with his fantasies, and I doubt he ever would have started talking like that if I hadn't been acting the way I've been. I am so turned on by the fact that it turns him on, and I am in awe...how do I cultivate a cuckolding relationship now (if I can?)
Thank you
