Ok. So I'm pretty vanilla. My husband has brought up the LS. I've been reading this forum in hopes of gaining insight and understanding.
My thought at the moment is how will our bedroom life be after the big step into the Lifestyle?
I've read that many of you are with your "playmates" on a few occasions. I fear that once we step into the lifestyle that our personal bedroom life will feel like it's lacking and we may never be able to completely satisfy each other alone.
I know we are not ready to begin the lifestyle. I know I need to work on being more sexually open. I don't masturbate, I don't watch porn. I was raised with no discussion of sex. Anything sexual or provocative was viewed as negative and dirty. Honestly I haven't allowed myself to enjoy oral sex (giving or receiving) until recently.
My husband has been patient and wonderful in our nine years of marriage. I'd like to eventually be comfortable enough with sex in general to perhaps venture into his fantasy.
I have a long way to go, but I'm working on it. That's the first step, right?
He'd like to bring me to a strip club (he goes with some friends and I sometimes get insecure about him bring there).