Ok so I'm a new poster and ask that you bear with me and my blog, as I'm sure it is going to be a little TMI.
I really need help because I am a married woman who have been swinging a little over ten years. My hubby is almost 18 years older than myself, and has shown signs of impotence, but also bisexuality.
I have in the past used this information as a catalyst to stay excited in the marriage. Meanwhile, my sex drive has increased in leaps and bounds and his is sinking fast. Until the last few years we have always enjoyed on-premise and Jamaican playtimes. However, he has lost interest and excitement for it, but will go through the motions to appease me.
Now it has come to a point where I'm not sure if I can continue masturbating every day (in front of him sometimes), and just having sex "on occasion".
BTW, when I mention how horny I've been, or how much I wanted him the night before, he will say he was too, but he wont initiate half the time!! UGH!!
Anyway, on the off chance that we do have sex, we will talk of how huge some guy is on dvd, and that really gets him going. Just knowing I was taking a huge cock is always the topic of conversation.
Now it has come to a point where I just decided to find someone, who fits the "profile" and do what I have to do without hubby. The only consolation is that I come home and tell him how much cock I had and how hot it was.
I know what everyone is thinking, "that isn't swinging". He's also said that to me.
I have found someone who is very much on my level in bed, but now I'm starting to really like him! I think hubby senses it to, especially when I didn't come home until the next day.
What am I going to do? This is the hardest thing I have contemplated in a long time...
Did I mention that we were married and divorced before, considering remarrying soon...
Help