Thanks for the advice. We have started to figure a lot of the things you said out during our break from the lifestyle. You are right, we have realized that we are not completely honest with each other out of fear of hurting each others feelings.
We have never been so honest with each other since that experience. I (husband) never really got hurt before, she has numerous times. I now understand fully how she felt and I'm glad I've experienced it. The experience before the one we last wrote about I had a hard time getting hard too. It was not the same because she didn't let completely loose like the most recent one. I was on cialis that night and it did absolutely no good for me. I believe it's because I really don't know what she wants out of the lifestyle. I do know in time I will find out as she discovers what exactly it is that she wants.
I believe we are both getting closer though.
Thanks again for your help and we hope you don't mind if we ask you more questions in the future. As a matter of fact if you have anything to say about what we just wrote please feel free to say it. We welcome it!!!