Thanks everyone. When I was with the other couple I thought then and still do, I was cheating, I was with them 5-6 times trying to find something but not sure what it was i did want to get even with him some how, was angree that I wasn't enough for him. I was just plain stupid. All this and we weren't even exclusive to each other. He wanted to try it all and I did it behind his back and lied about it. To say the least I have no back bone. Thought I could handle it, thought if I said no I would be enough for him, he would give it up for me. But I was wrong. And it kills me to see him with other women. There is noting special in the bed room anymore, sex is just sex now. And if I say something to him he says I owe him because he has not had exactly what I had, sex move for sex move. He's done it all with other women in front of me but only one time he did it all with one woman but he wants it multible times with the same woman. I'm not trying to blame it all on him I did my fare share, but how do I resolve this? I have read every word you have writen and am trying to figure out what to do. I am trying to tell you everything, to tell the truth, so again I thank you all for your help.