newbie4u

Ok...here it is..We're new to swinging. We haven't had a full swap yet. We started this with friends. We usually go to a club (meet & greet) with these friends. The husband & I really connected. My hubby & the wife really didn't have a connection (although, this really wasn't said until after...read on). For a few months, it was a lot of flirting, kissing, etc. My husband was approving in every way even talked about doing a full swap with this couple. Unfortunately, I made the mistake of breaking one of our rules. My husband left us alone so that I could kiss him goodbye (the wife had too much to drink and went to bed) and I went a little further by teasing him with a 'sample/tease' bj (it was very short). My husband saw this through the door window. He was very upset but has forgiven me (to a point). We still associate with these friends (both of us want to continue going out with them) and still go to clubs but my husband has forbidden me to continue anything (even flirt) with this guy. I've tried to tell my husband that it is hard going out with these friends and going cold turkey (especially when we're in the environment)...I understand that we can't take it to the next level but what's wrong with the flirting. My husband feels that I have feelings for him and I've tried to tell him that I don't...I have lust for him (it's lust i'm feeling). I love my husband, and I wish he could understand that. We had so much fun before this happened. We would love to talk about things for days. Now things aren't good. I guess I'm angry that I was given some candy and it was taken away