Spotlight Interview #25 - Littlebit54

[littlebit54]

Originally Posted by DandS

Do you have any pets?

What kinds of hobbies do you have?

What is the most interesting place you have traveled to or visited?

Hobbies? Hum, you mean besides reading/writing? Reading/writing on the internet? Reading/writing here on the internet? I used to have some others but, this one is so easy!
I do like to take pictures. I used to take a lot of pictures of butterflies (my favorite insect). I raised one once...that was a very fulfilling hobbie. Until the stray cats, goodbye hobbie...started chasing them away. I still like to take pictures but mostly of family and friends now.

Pets? What started out as feeding one stray calico turned into two, then three and on and on and on...My Mama told me not to feed strays, because they'll bring their families...Should have listened to my Mama on that one (she never told me not to cum...lol).

Most interesting place i ever visited? In the last twenty years it's always someplace where you can gamble. But, when i think about interesting rather than fun (and profit loss), it has to be Niagra Falls. That was when i was quite younger (not honeymoon); and i still remember the awesomeness of those mighty waters and the cool mists that surround them.

I don't get out enough these days. Don't have a laptop...lol

lilttlebit-too-much-stay-at-home-for-internet-feedings
jeanne

[biblonde]

Although you dont swing..what are your thoughts on swinging? Is it something that you would like to try someday? Or is it just a fantasy. If you could would you? Any fantasies you would like to share?

[littlebit54]

Originally Posted by biblonde

Although you dont swing..what are your thoughts on swinging? Is it something that you would like to try someday? Or is it just a fantasy. If you could would you? Any fantasies you would like to share?

Gosh you know what? I just wish i had known how fab it could have been when i was younger...or perhaps fitter... I guess fitter is better since i'm sorta glad that i know, what i didn't know then, now that i'm old enough to enjoy lust in all it's glory without the guilt that i might have felt in my 20s-30-40s. I always felt guilty about "The Joy of Sex" even after i read that book... :rollseyes

I actually did try something once. This girl i met in our apt. complex; and i got together on occasions and discussed the fact that she and her huband were swingers. They met thru the personal ads in a local paper. I was kind of "wet behind the ears" and it never really dawned on me that she was bi.

I mean talk about dumb "bottle" blond. Even before i knew they were swingers, we were having a cookout, laughing and joking; she suddenly softly says to me "my hubby likes you". I said, "But i like you"! I was thinking that she was thinking that i was flirting with her hubby and i was trying to let her know that i wouldn't mess with her husband and damage our friendship. Until, that is, the younger girl in the apartment complex came out on her upstairs landing; and one of the guys laughingly said, "I'd do her" and my g/f said, "So would i".

Oops...lol

Now, she's thinking i would like to do her! My face must have turned a brighter shade of red, realizing that now she had reason to think i liked her in a different way than i meant, or perhaps she was hoping i did. Anyway, one day not too long after the cookout she came by to bring me some plants from where she worked. We were having the normal "vanilla" conversation, when suddenly she says, "The other night, when i told you my husband wanted you, i should have told you before that, we are swingers and i'm bi-sexual."

Of course, i said something dumb, like, "Oh you are?" You have to understand that this was all pre-swappersnet.com and i was at a loss for words and that is "just not right" for me. Because of what happened at the cookout, i was also mildly embarrassed about the last part of the statement...After that our conversation pretty much went back to vanilla.

We did talk about bi-sexuality other times after that day with the plants, but as i said i was green, i guess i didn't really understand that she might be hitting on me, if you know what i mean.

Sometime later, we were at the pool and she brought up the fact that her husband had fantasies about me; and had shared them with her. I asked her what i was doing in the fantasies and she said giving him a blow job. She probably told him that b/js were my forte'...so to speak. I do love to suck on things-finges-tongues-cocks.....

Anyway, one thing led to another (over the course of time) and before you know it, i was in their apartment giving her husband some really good head. She asked me if she could use a dildo on me and i let her, but i still had my bathing suit on, so it wasn't as daring as it sounds. Except for phone sex, my life was pure "vanilla" until then. I haven't done anything like that since then and that was about seven years ago...Sex had always been with a man before and has been since.

I've been known to have fantasies about doing things with a woman, especially lately, but: i guess i feel as if they are better off staying in my mind. Unless, like i've also been known to say, i never know what i'm capable.....

Hey! Just a thought...Maybe i've got that old seven year itch, again; or something....

littlebit-ants-in-my-pants,
jeanne

[biblonde]

Originally Posted by littlebit54

I've been known to have fantasies about doing things with a woman, especially lately, but: i guess i feel as if they are better off staying in my mind. Unless, like i've also been known to say, i never know what i'm capable.....

Hey! Just a thought...Maybe i've got that old seven year itch, again; or something....

littlebit-ants-in-my-pants,
jeanne

Not all fantasies are best left in your mind...no I am not telling you or trying to talk you into trying it but just saying...You never know till you try. Of course it is up to you and only do what you feel comfy with! Me and hubby like the idea of living out our fantasies so that there is never that thought of "what if". and dear you are only as old as you feel!! remember that!

[littlebit54]

Originally Posted by biblonde

and dear you are only as old as you feel!! remember that!

Oh my! I feel fifty-five and alive! It must be the itch!

littlebit-liking-ants-in-pants
jeanne

[JustAskJulie]

Do you still believe in marriage? Do you think you would ever want to get married again?


Do you just have the one son, or do you have any other children? Were you always open with him/ them about sexuality?

[littlebit54]

Originally Posted by JustAskJulie

Do you still believe in marriage? Do you think you would ever want to get married again?


Do you just have the one son, or do you have any other children? Were you always open with him/ them about sexuality?

Do i still believe in marriage? Hum? I believe in marriage for others, just not for me. It would have to be such a match made in heaven that i wouldn't be able to breath without him and then i'd be tempted to get on oxygen first...lol

My first husband was an emotional wasteland and tried to make one out of me, too. I stayed with him for ten years almost to the day; and should have left about 3 years into it, after my oldest son was born. I stayed with him because my parents and his family were such sticklers about divorce back then that i almost killed them with shame when i finally left him for my second husband.

My second husband was the opposite of the first. He was nine years younger than me; and the deliverer of my sexuality. I wish i would have known about swinging back then, i might have stayed with him. We were married for three years when he decided to "cheat" on me with our neighbors who happened to be a girl i worked with at a nursing home. He worked there too as an orderly; and they must have gotten hot and heavy when they were taking CPR classes together. Of all my lovers he was the most open and up until he cheated we had a colossal sex life. I always told him to tell me if he wanted to have sex with another woman; and i would understand (after all he was young then).
He knew he messed up and so did i when he came home one night from supposedly riding his Harley with his best friend and i smelled her aroma in his mustach. What a bummer for him that i had such a good nose, huh?

We have one had a son together, too. But, my son is more like his father's father. He was the salt of the earth; and had this great dry sense of humor and my son got that from him, too.

To me there's one thing in the bible that i might believe about marriage and that's that it's good for procreation; and at the very least my son's both got their father's last names.

Since then i've been with my b/f. I might have considered marrying him at one time, but he made the mistake of telling someone that if we were still together in ten years, he'd probably marry me. To bad, my first seven year itch interfered with that estimate. It was a little late in coming on though as we were together for almost twelve years before i caught it...lol

Yep, always open and honest with my sons about sex. I couldn't/wouldn't have been able to do that with daughers; and in the scheme of things, the powers that be must have known that if i had been blessed with daughters we would have clashed about way too many things to ever see eye to eye...lol We would have had one of those classic mother/daughter clashes of wills.

I really don't recommend single parenting for everyone, but i think i did the best i could under most of the circumstances i faced. I believe my son's love me and respect me and i feel the same way about them (for the most part)...lol


littlebit-on-marriage
jeanne

[wrnakedru]

You've shared some experiences with us that you have had in the past; the threesome activity with one couple, and the fact you have viewed a fella while he was jacking off. Are these experiences you have verbally shared with your b/f ? Or more along the lines of doing these things to satisfy your own urges? And that you didn't wish to risk your long-time relationship with him by telling him things he couldn't deal with?

You must be, generally speaking, okay with the relationship as it is, or I think you wouldn't still be in it. (I assume you live together?) If you had your "druthers", would you change some of the sexual aspects of the relationship you share? Or do you feel there are better reasons for not changing things, and upsetting the applecart?

WR

[littlebit54]

Originally Posted by wrnakedru

You've shared some experiences with us that you have had in the past; the threesome activity with one couple, and the fact you have viewed a fella while he was jacking off. Are these experiences you have verbally shared with your b/f ? Or more along the lines of doing these things to satisfy your own urges? And that you didn't wish to risk your long-time relationship with him by telling him things he couldn't deal with?

You must be, generally speaking, okay with the relationship as it is, or I think you wouldn't still be in it. (I assume you live together?) If you had your "druthers", would you change some of the sexual aspects of the relationship you share? Or do you feel there are better reasons for not changing things, and upsetting the applecart?

WR

Thank you wrnakedru for the really good question. I was beginning to think my "spotlight" had gone out...lol Or perhaps, i answered everyone's questions before they had a chance to ask...wordy wordy wordy...i was always too wordy.




Yes, i have shared most of my extra-curricular activites with the b/f. He was always a little on the "kinky" side (or rather he enjoyed my kinkiness) from the first times we were together. For instance, we used to drive along I-10 in his pickup truck and what started out as flashing boobs, went on to become, me matasturbating while semi-truck drivers looked on. He's an 18-wheeler driver himself and had girls flash him, so he was just sort of returning the erotic favor to his fellow, bored, getting sleepy, horny truck drivers.

I don't think i ever shared the jacking off thing with him, but that was a while ago and the sex-deprived mind's memories fade over the years...lol So, i won't lie and say i didn't tell him, it's just that i don't recall for sure.

He knows about most of my other sexual escapades and likes to talk about them when-if ever-we get the urge-at the same time-to have a little playtime. Which has not been happening lately. I think he needs viagra, but he simply hates to take pills so, he may never be able to perform for me again.

Oh i would change a lot of things sexual if i could. After we got the "bunny" he started wanting to use it every time. It was ok at first but after a while, i got tired of always having to have that extra "thing" in the bed with us. I did like that nasty-talking-man next to me, though. He's so good at that, i'd probably never find another one as good as he was...

I guess he'd be happiest when/if i have a (young) lover (sexsitter as someone called them) to take care of my needs. Then he'd have this fantasy of me doing all those "naughty" things we used to do; and that would turn him on. Perhaps, he's been jacking off to those memories, too. I don't sleep with him (long story) so i'm sure he must do something, sometime. I know i do!

Apple cart? I have upset it more than once; and i guess you're right, i'd rather have things statis quo until one of us gets it right again!

He is good to me, i can't lie about that. He will let me do anything (within reason) that i want to, as long as i don't fall in love with someone else. I guess i've been his "kept" woman for so long that he doesn't want to upset the current state of affairs, either.

Perhaps, my youthful looks and sexuality make him feel old; or maybe it has nothing to do with me; and he feels old for other reasons, like his job, my children, his child, i'm just not sure. Maybe he just loves gambling more than he does me. I know addictions can be hard to control and since (one of) mine appears to be sexual; and his is not...we are not the perfect pair, we are the never ending imperfect love story.

littlebit-apple-anyone?
jeanne

[wrnakedru]

Thanks for your honest responses "without the icing". I think most of us have aspects of our relationships that may be a bit less than ideal. We have, however, in our own way adjusted to it being that way and yet, it is our preference not to trot it out for inspection by others. So I think that you are no more imperfect than most of the rest of us, just more blunt in the telling of it.

And of course, I am sure you have read there can be many contributing factors to a man [or woman] and the loss of libido. I wish you you luck (and success) in overcoming the situation to one that brings you greater sexual satisfaction.

Now, gambling can be a jealous mistress, for sure. You mention having been to many locations where gambling is the mainstay of the entertainment. Are you able to enjoy gambling to any degree, or has it become so divisive that you have no tolerance for it, much less any capability for it bringing any fun your way?

Was gambling something that always drew him or has it only come about since "the boats" appeared over your way? Do you think it is an addiction for him, or simply a way of escaping from the rest of life - which somehow represents demands on him?

You mentioned he has a child. How old is that child and how much of a part of your life together is that child?

I ask because my hubby has a daughter whom we only seem to hear from when she wants or needs something from us. I find myself torn in my role - feeling that she misses him not taking a more active interest in her life, but at the same time, angry that she expects us to provide solutions to situations she has created for herself. I find being a step-parent is even more difficult than being a parent and wonder if others have that same reaction to the role.

It strikes me that these questions are awfully damned personal in nature. If you'd prefer not to respond, just say so. I'll understand. Honest!

[littlebit54]

Originally Posted by wrnakedru

Thanks for your honest responses "without the icing". I think most of us have aspects of our relationships that may be a bit less than ideal. We have, however, in our own way adjusted to it being that way and yet, it is our preference not to trot it out for inspection by others. So I think that you are no more imperfect than most of the rest of us, just more blunt in the telling of it.

And of course, I am sure you have read there can be many contributing factors to a man [or woman] and the loss of libido. I wish you you luck (and success) in overcoming the situation to one that brings you greater sexual satisfaction.

Now, gambling can be a jealous mistress, for sure. You mention having been to many locations where gambling is the mainstay of the entertainment. Are you able to enjoy gambling to any degree, or has it become so divisive that you have no tolerance for it, much less any capability for it bringing any fun your way?

Was gambling something that always drew him or has it only come about since "the boats" appeared over your way? Do you think it is an addiction for him, or simply a way of escaping from the rest of life - which somehow represents demands on him?

You mentioned he has a child. How old is that child and how much of a part of your life together is that child?

I ask because my hubby has a daughter whom we only seem to hear from when she wants or needs something from us. I find myself torn in my role - feeling that she misses him not taking a more active interest in her life, but at the same time, angry that she expects us to provide solutions to situations she has created for herself. I find being a step-parent is even more difficult than being a parent and wonder if others have that same reaction to the role.

It strikes me that these questions are awfully damned personal in nature. If you'd prefer not to respond, just say so. I'll understand. Honest!

Oh heaven's no i don't mind answering your questions, i mean openness is all in my nature, can't change that now...

The gambling? I guess i knew from the very first time i saw him playing Beaurea (sp) (boo-ray) a card game at the bar where i was tending that he liked to gamble and my boss and his wife told me that he also liked to play the horses. We both like the casinos though, but i can walk away a winner easier than he can.

I guess i took him as he was and instead of trying to change him, joined him. If the only time we get to do things together is where/when there is gambling i had to learn to enjoy it a littlebit myself or be alone more than i wanted. He always makes sure the bills are paid; and for the most part we have what we need and most of what we want.

I think it runs in his family, as his parents/sister also do it. I guess there could be worse addictions and should be thankful this one is, at least, not as harmful to his body as say drugs or alcohol...I'm sure you're probably right about the escapism factor, but it's also a full fledged addiction. He'll probably die at the track of a heart attack when he hits the big one...funny but sad too.

His child! Now there is the perfect example of the bad seed...It's not all his fault either. It's like the whole family gold plated him until he was rotten inside. He had a "nanny" when he was young and then when my b/f and i got together (after his divorce) both my b/f and his son's mother left the raising of their son to his grandparents (both sets). It's like they didn't want to be bothered with the emotional or financial responsiblity of a child. Now they expect him to know how to take responsibility for his own actions. He's 24, quit school at 15, never had a job for more than a day, steals, lies, abuses his grandparents (the Mother's father died a few years back; and the grandmother is in a nursing home with a nervous breakdown/Als), uses heavy drugs, and is now (at present) in jail for the upteeth time.

Does it sound like i have the answer for your situation? I wish i did. I guess all you can do is the best you know how, to show love and support without compromising what you believe is right. It is much harder being a step parent and the rewards are few and far between; at least that's been my experience. The hardest part of my situation is that we both had son's close to the same age. While my son got only what we could afford to give him, his son languished in the lap of luxury through the wealth of his grandparents.

Do i feel arrogant that my son's at least try to take responsibility for themselves and their offspring? YOU BET i do. That's the least a person can do in life. Try to raise a child to get to that point and hope for the best resolution when/if they don't always meet up to your expectations. That's how i survived...and took plenty of aspirins...lol

littlebit-on-step-parenting
jeanne

[ALilOEverything]

Are you were you saw yourself 10 year ago and where do you think you will be in another 10 years?

What is one thing you haven't done yet in life that you want to do before you can't? (non-sexual)

What was your favorite subject in school?

If you could see anyone live in concert (dead or alive) who would that be?

Who was your greatest role model?

[littlebit54]

Originally Posted by ALilOEverything

Are you were you saw yourself 10 year ago and where do you think you will be in another 10 years?

What is one thing you haven't done yet in life that you want to do before you can't? (non-sexual)

What was your favorite subject in school?

If you could see anyone live in concert (dead or alive) who would that be?

Who was your greatest role model?

Thanks ALilOEverything for your questions.
Am i where i saw myself 10 years ago? Probably. I have never had a lot of ambition to better myself. I know that sounds sad, but i wasn't raised right, lol What can i say? I really hate that old cliche', but, in my case it just happens to be true. My adoptive parents were ice cubes and didn't really need me as they were able to have their own children and got me when i was nine. Now, i'm realize that doesn't excuse me, but; when you're told all the time that you will never amount to a "hill of beans" sometimes it's so hard to shut that voice, inside you up that you finally give in to it's precictions.

Ten years from now? I will probably still be hearing those voices (with others added over the years); and still be where i am right now, unless by some wonderous happenstance i win the lottery. Then, i might be able to do something good for everyone which is where i've always wanted to be in my life. Which is the answer to the question about what i would do in my life that i haven't been able to do so much (non-sexual). I would love to be able to help underprivalaged children or work with people who do. Or, learn to tango, or write a book.

I guess my favorite subject in school would have to be English/literature. I loved to read, always did love books. Loved "Gone With the Wind" read the sexy parts dozens of times.

Who would i see in concert? The Beatles. I was a big fan of theirs, but in their pre-harder rock days. I always wanted to see Neil Daimond too, but i hear he's not as good now as he was when we were both younger...

Hum.. again with the hard questions. My role model? Debbie. She did Dallas....lol I know get serious, right...gosh, how can someone who never amounted to a "hill of beans" claim to have roll model. That's narrowing it down quite a bit, isn't it? Let me see, i really do need to give you a serious answer, don't i?
Ok, Helen Keller. She did so much with her life; and overcame real handicaps not the imaginary ones like i have. She is not really a role model, but if i had real handicaps, i would have wanted to be like her.

littlebit-too-boring-to-be-serious,
jeanne

[JustAskJulie]

So do you find that overall you tend to get along better with guys than with other women?

[littlebit54]

Originally Posted by JustAskJulie

So do you find that overall you tend to get along better with guys than with other women?

Yes i guess i do get along better as a whole with guys than i do girls. Although having said that, it's not what i prefer. I do still love my high school girlfriends and still get along with all my chums from back then, but new women ones are hard to find in my situation, as in do not work, do not get out much, do not par-tey etc.
I guess i need to work on my lady people skills...lol

littlebit-male in woman's body...lol
jeanne