No, I'm not a lesbian (I'm a guy). But here's what is happening.
Me and my wife are swingers (suprise, suprise), and we have both full swapped in the same room without many issues at all. Me and her have *always* been looking for a single female for us to play with for a while. And after a near 2 year search, we haven't even came close.
Then my wife starts this job and meets a girl who happens to be lesbian (when I say lesbian, I mean a woman with *NO* interest in men... period). The two clicked almost right away and then I was approached with the question if the two could play together. I basically said it would be fine as long as I could watch (I'm more of a voyer anyway). After this said lesbian was told of the one condition, she wasn't interested.
My wife didn't like this, she begged and pleaded for me to allow the two to play alone. I finally gave in and said "yes".
Well, she came over one day and I happened to be out of the house. There was no plan to play, but my wife asked if it was ok if the two could kiss, and I said "yes". After I hung up the phone, I felt this anxiety come over me, like the possibility of this other girl could possibly take her away from me.... and that I was missing out on part of my wife's sexuality.... I felt cheated.... or cheated on, I'm not sure.
I called back and said it was late and that I had to come home (after all, when one has to get up at 6 AM, they need their sleep), my wife was a little peeved but she agreed. When I walked through the door I saw her and her friend sitting on the couch talking. I waved, fixed myself some food, ate, and promptly went to bed, my wife continued to stay up for a bit longer.
As I was sleeping I heard my wife moaning downstairs, soon after that, the other girl left. When I heard my wife moan, I felt this feeling of jealousy crawl all over me, not necessarily that it wasn't me causing the moaning... but that I wasn't there to watch (or prolly better yet, not allowed to watch).
I know jealousy shouldn't be part of the lifestyle, but me and my wife came to an agreement when we first started this, that we would keep everything same room. Then to bring someone in who could possibly start a relationship with my wife, and want alone time with her, is killing me.
After a long talk, we decided it would be best if things went half and half. Half the time I watch, half the time I don't.
So a conclusion is drawn between wife and husband. But here is why I am writting:
Should this other girl not agree to the newfound condition, should I give into pressure of the two playing alone for good?
Are my feelings somewhat childish? Or do I have a legitimate reason to be a bit jealous?