No more training wheels!

[sweet_tna]

I finally took the plunge and performed oral on another woman.

Okay, for a lot of you, that would not be an earth-shattering revelation. But I'd been driving myself (and Mr. Sweet) crazy for about a year or so. You see, it was only about a year ago when I realized that I did, in fact, find women sexually attractive and wanted to explore those feelings. I guess I'm a late bloomer. (shrugs)

Anyway, I've had several experiences where I was the benefactor of other ladies' attention, but never quite felt ready to return the favor . . . I was too afraid of being a disappointment. Either I'd be really bad at it, or decide after trying that I didn't like it after all, and I just couldn't bring myself to take that risk. So the "training wheels" stayed on.

Then a few months ago, I began to work up the nerve to finally try it and . . . BAM! I got "pussy-blocked" by my own husband! It was completely unintentional, especially as he had no idea what I was thinking. Talk about frustrating!!

Then real life interfered, and we were in a bit of a swinging drought. The drought ended with a bang . . . or so I'm told. Mr. Sweet and I hosted a Halloween party, but everyone ended up drinking too much (thanks to some extra strength jello shots). A bunch of us ladies ended up in a tangle on the bed, and at some point I remember looking lady's pussy and thinking, "oh what the hell." I was told we seemed to enjoy ourselves. (SIGH)

So of course, I beat myself up for losing control that way. NOT for finally taking that leap, but for being stupid enough to do it when I was plastered and unable to be fully aware of what I was doing or remember the experience. As far as I was concerned, I was back where I started. I decided it just wasn't meant to be, and tabled the idea of exploring my bi side any further.

For New Year's Eve, we had a nice, quiet evening planned with a couple we'd been playing "grab-ass" with for the better part of the year. We ended up playing a special version of Uno with them, and during the other hubby's turn, he earned a sexual favor. He requested that his wife (also bi curious and fairly inexperienced) go down on me. When Mr. Sweet's turn came to receive a favor, he requested that I go down on the other wife. For this particular version of the game, favors only last 20 seconds. So Mr. Sweet figured it was a good opportunity.

Later on, the game ended up being forgotten in favor (like the pun?) of playtime. This time, it was the other hubby who requested I give oral attentions to his wife. And thus, the training wheels flew off.

Now for the big question . . . did I enjoy it?

For the most part, yes. I am very attracted to this lady, and I think she enjoyed it--which for me, is really important. I had NO idea what the hell I was doing, though.

But (and you knew this was coming, right?) I think for me, FF play will only ever be an appetizer, so to speak. At the end of the night, I'm still going to want a MAN to play with.

Also, I'd have preferred more foreplay with her . .. kissing, touching each others' bodies, etc. before "diving in".

While I'm relieved to finally know on which side of the "bi fence" I sit, nothing really changes for me/us. I'm still standing firmly on the ground.

=)

[lustylearning]

I think that awkwardness and newness interfere with our ability to enjoy any first experience. Now that monkey's off your back, so to speak, it'll probably be easier when you do it again

[SW_PA_Couple]

May none of us ever reach a day when we loose our capacity to surprise ourselves (delightfully).

~Michael