almost there - first party

[bradandjanetca]

We have been marrried for over 7 years, during a small spell of that time she had joined a religious group that made her feel that she was a sinner for being female (no joke), it was a cult disguised as christianity. Although I managed to get her out of there, she has had emotional ups and downs over it and even when we made love she would go into guilt spells. It took years for this to wash out of her system, so much so that she agreed to WILLINGLY go to a party in the Los Angeles area. Very classy on premise party. At first she was frightened by what she saw and then riduculed herself for being so conservative. Finally, she opened up We did not swing but she wore revealing lingerie and gave me head in public and in one of the party rooms. She loved it so much, she wants to go back and perhaps play with a few people. I want you all to know that we were not drunk or on drugs, we really wanted to enjoy this with an open mind. Also, I never pushed her into anything, not once. I am so delighted that she is having an awakening. I would love to have her speak to other women who have experienced something of an awakening themselves/

[LikeMinds321]

Hi and Welcome

Thank you for sharing so much in your introduction.

Your wife can read the board with you and together you can post and let us know more about you.

LM

[Spoomonkey]

Welcome!

Your post is quite interesting and while I doubt many here can directly relate to "cult deprogramming", many women on here can tell stories of their own sexual emergence/self-discovery.

Have your wife post along side you (or even under a different screen name). I have no doubt she'll find a lot of fascinating insight from some very real, liberated, self actualized women.

Spoomonkey

[WesternSwing]

Welcome ! You'll find several threads on this board about reconciling religion, guilt, and swinging as well as some links to great websites about it. Just do a search on them.

Mr. WS

[BradAndJanet]

Welcome to the board, from one Brad and Janet to another!

-B

[bradandjanetca]

Originally Posted by WesternSwing

Welcome ! You'll find several threads on this board about reconciling religion, guilt, and swinging as well as some links to great websites about it. Just do a search on them.

Mr. WS

I am so pissed off with spam spyware etc from adult sites that I am too freaked to even research this, if you know of any safe sites to visit, would appreciate it.

[bradandjanetca]

Originally Posted by BradAndJanet

Welcome to the board, from one Brad and Janet to another!

-B

aha! so tis you who have taken the screen name we craved!

[bradandjanetca]

Originally Posted by LikeMinds321

Hi and Welcome

Thank you for sharing so much in your introduction.

Your wife can read the board with you and together you can post and let us know more about you.

LM

hello, I am the "Janet". So what would you like to know? I am not willing to share my picture. I have been with a woman once but the experience was horrible because the woman's husband kept whining about wanting to participate. this was several years ago, I would like to try it again perhaps someday. To be honest with you all, although I did enjoy my time at the club, truth is I feel guilty. My husband suggested I share my feelings here with like minded people. I have turned very cold and distant towards him. I am not angry with him, I can safely say that he was a gentleman who did not push me into any of this but the fact is I feel dirty, I feel ashamed and I feel as though he is to blame for suggesting this to me even though I know I enjoyed myself...and I know I am not thinking normally. this is just not something I could dare to talk to my psychologist about because I fear he might judge me or he might judge my husband and find him to be disgusting for taking me to this party. I know I keep saying that, but I again want to reiterate he did nothing wrong. I think I sound like a lunatic. I will stop now, but if there is anyone out there, anyone at all who went through kinda sorta of what I did, I would love to know and how you dealt with it and bacame happy with it (or not).

[good times]

Originally Posted by bradandjanetca

I am so pissed off with spam spyware etc from adult sites that I am too freaked to even research this, if you know of any safe sites to visit, would appreciate it.

Welcome to the board bradandjanetca,

I think the searching that Mr. WS was refering to was the search feature at the top of this page for those subjects on this sight. Any links you find in those posts will normally not be to porn sights.

[intuition897]

Hi bradandjanetca! Welcome to the board. And an especially warm welcome to Janet. I'm Mrs. intuition897, and 999 times out of 1000 (literally) it's me posting here. I won't get into a long-winded explaination here, but I understand somewhat the guilt you talk about. It hindered me for a long time, too, and I'll tell ya, that guilt did absolutely nothing to improve life for me. Send me a PM if you'd like to chat sometime.

[Edison Carter]

Susan here/ Here's the deal: She tried being in a repressed environment and all it did was mess up her life. Now, she's in an unrepressed environment and feeling a tremendous release. Her experience will be unique to her, yet not uncommon. The key is to go easily as her mind processes these new experiences and integrates them into her psyche. And always remember, you can always try something once and never try it again and no crime was committed in the experiment.