After several plastic surgeries, I have questions...

[wisconsin]

I guess my question would fit under body modification topics.I don't post much here,but visit this site qiute often and always find some valueble information.
Recently ( 6 weeks ago) I had several surgical enhancements or in another words several plastic surgeries. It was very difficult recovery emotionally and physically, and only now I feel almost back to normal,however not sure how much and in what degree of interaction I can participate when playing.
My hubby is very understanding and careful with me,besides he is a Mr.Big. He needs to be extra gentle.
I have a BF I play with once in a while.He is the only one I am interested to see and play, unless it's occasional club visitings in Chicago. I do play there but very rarely.
My interactions and interests with BF only based on sex.We text each other,agree on meeting time and we play.It's only sexual interests between us and nothing more.I usually play hard and he plays hard, and it's mostly a long sessions for 3-4 hours.I am usually sexually assertive and can be even sligtly agressive if I have a feeling that he wants to be little sub.
I am not sure how much I can offer now.My endurance is different,my ability to connect and exchange energy is different,and I just look different now.
So little bit insecurity comes here.
Would I be able to stand up to the standarts he got used to?What if I would not be able to enjoy it?He can read my body language pretty well and since it's just purelly sex he would be disappointed?He isn't my husband who loves me in sickness and health.
I would love to play some but not sure how much at in what extent and the same time I don't want offer mediocre performance.
What do you guys think?

[Tex Longone]

Sounds to me like you need to back off a little bit from the B.F. until you get yourself up to your usual level. Taking sometime for yourself and your husband without the extra looks to me what you need. Don't worry about what the B.F. thinks.. he will either understand or should be kicked to the curb. If you are feeling fragile remember to protect the most important things your marriage and yourself.

[TwoAreLooking]

Yes. What he said.

Take care of yourself and your primary relationship. More will happen again when it's time. This may not be on your timetable.

M.

[Tia Vampire]

Yes, what the last two post said. Give yourself time to heal both physically and emotionally. I had the tummy tuck done 11 yrs ago, but not until I had a tattoo put over the scare, which was about 6 months ago, I was very selfconscious about the scare. I love my new body and showed it of about 3 months after the surgery, but not without my underwear.

[wisconsin]

Thanks guys for your responses.It's always better to look at your situation under different prospectives and with different opinions.
Scars don't look too bad actually, pretty good.They are very fine and neat.Appearance improved drastically,however some residual swelling shows up once in a while.
I may cover them up just to make sure ppl don't get distracted by looking at them.
It seems like I am ready for some actions,at least mentally... It's been loooooong 6 weeks. Not sure physically how much I can take,won't do DP for sure yet.
Hubby had played couple of times and I stayed home.
Maybe at least with somebody who knows me pretty well,but the same time I don't want to be dissapointment.I don't want start playing and then Ouch,Ouch,it hurts.
I think he (BF) is freaking out too,because I texted him yesterday and did't get anything back yet.I guess I will show up by his door and seduce him with my new boobs. Men are such a fragile creatures....
As funny as it may sound not all are replaceable in this LS even for us girls,some are treasures we want keep for a while.
Mrs.I