Thanks.
He told me that he never told his wife about the 3-somes beforehand. I told him that was CHEATING and wrong!! He agrees with me and says that if he could change his past, he would. I asked him why he went back for more and he admits this was a GREAT experience, and that to him it was just sex and did not involve feelings. I told him it was still CHEATING and it makes me wonder what kind of husband he would really be! (I told him I felt sorry for his wife -- he didnt like that!)
Granted, I have brought him down a notch and if he didnt see what he did was wrong then, he does now.
Gosh, I really love this guy but I am so scared to get hurt. He cheated on his wife and was a swinger -- now I am asking him to be different with me. He says he loves me and deserves a chance at a better life and marriage than his first one and would never do anything to hurt me. I want to believe him, but you all have read my earlier posts. Can a person walk away from this life? Can one woman ever be enough to a man that enjoyed group sex? I have so many fears -- and he knows all of them.
I just cannot shake the image of the group sex thing. Every time I am forced to be around this couple (via a party, football game, etc.), I have an anxiety attack. Then the cutie swinging woman comes over and starts flirting with my boyfriend. Even has the nerve to kiss him on the lips! Ugh. Can I ever shake this? Can I trust he will never go there again?
You guys have been great! Thanks for letting me get this off my chest.
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