Well I'm guessing that perhaps in my excitment I didn't really see what my nudging was doing, this has been something I wanted for a very long time and I really thought since she likes sex that this wuold me a great journy for both of us.
Knowing her sexual history and mine, but taking into account that she does enjoy sex, I thought perhaps it wasn't "that" tramatic, or that she had put it behind her.
I'm also guessing that in my excitment I didn't stop to think that she really was just going along with everything to make me happy (as she does with everything else)
I should state that I never forced her, I simply stated my opinion that this was something I have wanted to explore for a very long time and that there is a difference between sex and making love and that I have no trouble separating the two, even if she does.
I've explained my desires and whytp her till I'm blue in the face that having sex would make us more closer and the excitment and fun would only be enhansing the great sex we have, (not replaceing it) It is very difficult now that I've had a taste of my dreams to simply forget they exist.
But when I say, ok fine, we'll just forget about it... and I won't check "those" accounts so often, but then a few days or weeks will pass and then she brings it up and gives me hope.
Like the other day, she said that maybe for my b'day we can go back to the club, (she has stated that she did enjoy going) but that IF we go, the same rules apply, she wants us to keep any and all sexual activity to just us. That if anyone wants to watch us, that's fine, but that's it.
I want to go back to the club,but is she for real, or only offering this to please me, or just stringing me along.
thanks for the replies
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