Okay, so we have seen some couples more than once. In fact a few of them, I do consider friends. And yes, he is always with the wife of the man I am with. We haven't done any threesomes. And, yes, I need to stand my ground more often than I do. He does know how I feel. He knows that I don't like doing this every weekend. I think he has problems with his mother. She did not give him the attention that he needed and now he thrives on getting it from other women. And to be truthful, who doesn't like the attention of the opposite sex. But it can be overwhelming in this lifestyle. Is it truly just about sex with strangers? And what in the heck is wrong with me, that I have let this pace continue for so long? I'm not totally against it, I like the anticipation of meeting new couples sometimes, but unlike my husband, I am not in it for sex. And to be honest, out of the 100 or so couples we have slept with, there is only a handful that I truly like. Not that I dislike them.... But, in searching my heart, and being honest, I find only a handful that I would call and say.... hey... want to go shopping with me? Is it just me? Or is there really more to this lifestyle than just sex? Ohhhh... I'm exhausted. Thank you for all your kind words. I feel better having somewhere to go and write my t houghts.
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