I have mentioned to him my feelings of rejection. But he thinks its me....he always tells me, I am his only love.... but this isn't about love. Its something deeper than that. I think there is something very special about a couple whose only need is to be with each other. When, if they have an open weekend, they were thinking of how they could spend it together, rather than thinking about who they were going to fuck. Ohhh! Sorry! I don't normally curse. Its just a little frustrating. I have been searching all my life for that kind of love. I thought I had it, but I am wondering if it even exists. Knowing so many couples in this lifestyle. Actually... I do think I know one couple, where it actually seems that they totally adore one another. He is always looking out for her, and she for him. I think my husband needs more than I can give. Problem is... I give him all I have.
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