[2dreamyangels]

I seem to have a husband who is obsessed with this lifestyle. While it is true that I have made this choice, it is also true, that I love this man and would do anything for him aside from breaking the law. We have had our ups and downs. The worst part of it is, that he spends hours trying to set up meetings (we call them dates) with other couples, and I only wish he would spend a few hours and plan a romantic date for us. We see different people almost every weekend. We have been in this lifestyle for 3 years and I've had sex with over 100 men. (I know this, because I found a little black book that he keeps with the names of the couples we've slept with). So, does it take away from our relationship? I think it does. We used to make love 3 to 4 times a week. Now, I am lucky if I get to have sex with him once a month. It is no longer making love. It is simply having sex because he is always fantasizing about who the next couple will be. I miss when he fantasized about me. I miss when we made love 3 to 4 times a week. I miss him. But he is lost to this lifestyle. With us.... we have discussed not doing it as often. But he subtly reminds me that he may not be able to stay faithful. I also know that he would not be happy. He is a very social person and loves the whole atmosphere. At least, being in the lifestyle, I know who he is with. Funny thing is, I know that I would enjoy this lifestyle so much more, if it were an occasional meeting. I don't want to be out of it, I just don't want it to be my whole life. Does anyone else feel like there mates are obsessed?