 How can I deal with these feelings of insecurity?
My husband and I have been together for 9 years and we have talked about getting into swinging for quite some time now. We have actually met with another couple but it didn't turn out to be as much fun as we expected, although it was very erotic and satisfying for the most part. We were hoping for more interaction between all of us rather than the actual swapping of partners that happened. We did learn from it though...
Anyway, my question is about an insecurity
I have that I just can't seem to shake or learn how to deal with. You see, in my husband's eyes I have always been 'the best.' He has only been with a handful of women
before so I don't doubt the sincerity of his
statement. What I am afraid of is that if we get deeper into this lifestyle, he will have the chance to be with women who are much better than me. Women who excite him more, who kiss more passionately, who impress him with better orgasms, and who give better oral sex. And what if there's someone out there who can do something wonderful that I can't?
I'm afraid that he will enjoy others so much more than he ever will me again and I will feel small and inadequate. Is this 'demon' something I can conquer or should I give up any thought of being able to enjoy this lifestyle?
Thank you
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