I too have been burned by infidelity in the past with my exes and though I had always fantasized about M having another woman I never thought that I would be able to actually see it without having the green eyed monster in me break loose. And of course I was nervous when it came down to it that he wouldn't even acknowledge that I was in the room. Well, the very first time, there was that twinge of jealousy in the back of my mind as I watched him but yes it does transform into something much more intense than that. And my husband would also look over at me and I saw the look of love in his eyes for me. I knew that it was okay.
Just talk your feelings out with your husband. Maybe it will help to talk through every fear beforehand. And if you decide to go for it have a signal to say that you don't want to continue through.
Good luck,
Tigress xx
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