Most of what I’ve seen was with my last boyfriend. Most of what he had was on his computer. A couple of the “girls” have rented some special interest movies which I can’t call porn, but had some nice erotic scenes in them. I like things that have a real flavor to them. Things that focus on what the woman is experiencing, which most lesbian erotica does, and the amateur stuff I’ve seen does more of. To enjoy watching something I’ve got to be able to put myself in the position of somebody in the film. The real cheesy stuff doesn’t get me aroused. When I know somebody makes a sound or a face because of what they are experiencing, not because they are clowning around on camera, that is arousing. I can put myself in their place and live it in that detached kind of way. Its what makes me want to jump into bed with my last boyfriend, or drop plans to go out and have fun in my own bed, or make that extra trip to Michigan on a weekend I hadn’t planned on meeting up with somebody, or go out and find some girl at a bar which I’ll shamelessly admit to having done a couple of times. Its why I liked taping ourselves when I was with my last boyfriend, and why I’d do it again if I were in a suitable relationship. Seeing it again puts me back to that moment for a little bit. |