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Hi Julie,
iam not sure there was a tipping point, i guess iam the sort of person who tends to think about stuff and over analize ???, and in between 1st meeting her and last night , Bill and i spoke often about it , and i was able to voice any concerns i had, and he listend and we talked them through, made me feel and think more clearly. like i said i like to take things to the next level , but never totaly out of my comfort zone , would never do anything , that i thought would be detremental to others or myself.
But one thing that dose supprize me about this hole thing is this. Naturaly iam sub, and Bill always takes the lead , but now we have had two swinging exsperiences and both times i have taken the lead, that puzzels me , as iam not like that sexually ????. And when it comes to the girl thing, i have always been interested, but in my previous life as wife and mother with my ex, was never allowed , to think , alittle outside the square of what my ex husband thought was the norm. So..... i guess , i just went with what, i felt was right at the time , and let my intuition guied me , once it wasnt so clouded by thoughts of anger, jealousy, self doubt, and what at the time to me was a very threating situation. just enjoyed the moment .
By the way thanks for taking such a interest in my situation , thoughts and feelings
Nerida xxoo