Well first off let me just reassure you that you are an absolute doll! You are beautiful! And from what I can tell from your photos you look like you are a lot of fun too!
I can't tell from your post if its the masturbation that you are having a problem with or the porn, or both. So I'll try put my two cents in on both.
First of all, it must be a guy thing. My hubby and I can have sex three times a day and he will still have to go and masterbate before he goes to sleep. Sometimes he'll do it threee times a day. Maybe he's a nymphomaniac, I don't know but I think that it's pretty common. I am sure the guys on here can elaborate more.
As far as the porn, every woman is beautiful in her own way. Hubby likes to look at porn and so do I from time to time. I think it's just like roses. They are all beautiful, but even though they are not exactly the same, one rose is just as beautiful as the next. I can't help but feel that maybe you are feeling a little insecure about the way that you look. But from what I saw and by the way that you have described your relationship with him, he definately still finds you attractive and desirable.
I just asked hubby why he likes to look at it, and his explanation is basically a curiosity thing. One woman may have great breast, one may have a great butt, and another something else. As a man he is attracted to women period. It's not that he is looking to replace me or find something better. Because there is no better
. It' s just something different.
I had a friend who used to call it eye candy. And that is basically what it is. Just because you buy fine ass red convertable sports car, you are not going to stop looking at other cars that drive past. It's human nature.
Don't worry about to much. Know that you are beautiful, because you are.
