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Originally Posted by dgoody1234  I really appreciate the responses. I have to admit I thought I would read something like iapr's posts.
You are right that we are in no way ready to experience anything like swinging. The fact of the matter is that I push my wife because I have the fantasies and I use alcohol to loosen her up and have her say what I want -- obviously that is not totally healthy, or fair.
I don't want to ever share my wife with another man and am completely selfish, and will admit that I just want the freedom to do what I want to do -- I guess I am getting that itch for other women and want the permission to be with them. I guess I figure that if she came along for the experience then I could never be blamed for cheating. I thought the idea of an escort would be the best way because I could keep it all business and be with a professional that wouldn't complicate things.
As far as the comments about the drinking, it's all me. I have a very addicting type personality and tend to use alcohol frequently for various reasons. I can see that pursuing this thinking is only going to end up badly and I am best suited to keep the fantasies to her and move on.
Thanks for the advice. |
While I appreciate the honesty, I have to wonder what you plan to do about these issues now that you're aware of them? I'd recommend therapy for you and your wife . . . you both need to kick the alcohol addiction and work on your marriage. If not for your own sakes, definitely for your kids.
Best of luck to ya'll . . .