I have a super complicated situation and I desparately need some advice...but it is long...so thanks in advance to anyone who finishes it and writes back.
First I have to explain that my hubby and I have been together 8 years, married 6 and we are only 24. We have the most unbelieveably perfect relationship Ive ever even heard of! We are best friends and do everything together. Our sex life is great! 6 times a week if not more. Weve been swinging a little for the past three years and it has only ever made us closer. We've had threesomes with some of my friends a couple times, no jealousy there atall. I have no complaints about our sex life.
So youre wondering now, whats the problem? lol...well the main problem in our relationship is my insecurity...I feel horrible about the way I look and I know it rubs off on him constantly...but its been worse lately because every time I go on the computer I see 30 porn sites, this is every day or close. (to see what I look like, go to
http://briefcase.yahoo.com/lyssab420 ) Our sex life hasnt suffered atall, but it makes me feel like shit. I tell myself every time I see it that these blond perfect girls are what turns him on. I've never had a problem with this, except that its so much so often! Hundreds of pictures! I consider myself a pretty open minded, expecially sexually! But his is really bothering me, I dont know how much is normal for a guy!
Also, a year and a half ago I found some personal ads on her from him looking for a girl. It was a huge issue and he swears it was when he was mad at me and he never met anyone or even meant to. He never really goes anywhere without me so I dont think he has had the time to cheat and he let me then go through all of his emails and there was nothing. He is a great guy and I dont really believe he could cheat on me, but in the ads he said he was bored. Even then we had sex practically every single night, really really great sex! He hasnt done anything else to make me suspicious...but this has made me believe that no matter how much sex we have, hes bored.
So, between the constant looking at of porn pictures and the ads Im seriously worried...but at the same time, I swear our relationship is so good he couldnt be faking being happy this good! We are all over eachother constantly...everyone comments on us being like newlyweds...everything seems 100% perfect until I turn on this damn computer.
I just need some advise from some guys in their twenties or some women who may know what Im going through...I need to know from guys whether what he does on the computer is a normal guy thing (hes always had a huge sex drive) and hes just playing around on the computer or if I have a serious problem and he is really sick of me and bored with me that he needs to look at women that much. Any serious, honest replys would really help me out!!! I have no one to ask!
And I appologize for the legnth...but I warned ya
Thanks for your time
