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sweet_tna · 01-04-2009, 05:16 PM

I finally took the plunge and performed oral on another woman.

Okay, for a lot of you, that would not be an earth-shattering revelation. But I'd been driving myself (and Mr. Sweet) crazy for about a year or so. You see, it was only about a year ago when I realized that I did, in fact, find women sexually attractive and wanted to explore those feelings. I guess I'm a late bloomer. (shrugs)

Anyway, I've had several experiences where I was the benefactor of other ladies' attention, but never quite felt ready to return the favor . . . I was too afraid of being a disappointment. Either I'd be really bad at it, or decide after trying that I didn't like it after all, and I just couldn't bring myself to take that risk. So the "training wheels" stayed on.

Then a few months ago, I began to work up the nerve to finally try it and . . . BAM! I got "pussy-blocked" by my own husband! It was completely unintentional, especially as he had no idea what I was thinking. Talk about frustrating!!

Then real life interfered, and we were in a bit of a swinging drought. The drought ended with a bang . . . or so I'm told. Mr. Sweet and I hosted a Halloween party, but everyone ended up drinking too much (thanks to some extra strength jello shots). A bunch of us ladies ended up in a tangle on the bed, and at some point I remember looking lady's pussy and thinking, "oh what the hell." I was told we seemed to enjoy ourselves. (SIGH)

So of course, I beat myself up for losing control that way. NOT for finally taking that leap, but for being stupid enough to do it when I was plastered and unable to be fully aware of what I was doing or remember the experience. As far as I was concerned, I was back where I started. I decided it just wasn't meant to be, and tabled the idea of exploring my bi side any further.

For New Year's Eve, we had a nice, quiet evening planned with a couple we'd been playing "grab-ass" with for the better part of the year. We ended up playing a special version of Uno with them, and during the other hubby's turn, he earned a sexual favor. He requested that his wife (also bi curious and fairly inexperienced) go down on me. When Mr. Sweet's turn came to receive a favor, he requested that I go down on the other wife. For this particular version of the game, favors only last 20 seconds. So Mr. Sweet figured it was a good opportunity.

Later on, the game ended up being forgotten in favor (like the pun?) of playtime. This time, it was the other hubby who requested I give oral attentions to his wife. And thus, the training wheels flew off.

Now for the big question . . . did I enjoy it?

For the most part, yes. I am very attracted to this lady, and I think she enjoyed it--which for me, is really important. I had NO idea what the hell I was doing, though.

But (and you knew this was coming, right?) I think for me, FF play will only ever be an appetizer, so to speak. At the end of the night, I'm still going to want a MAN to play with.

Also, I'd have preferred more foreplay with her . .. kissing, touching each others' bodies, etc. before "diving in".

While I'm relieved to finally know on which side of the "bi fence" I sit, nothing really changes for me/us. I'm still standing firmly on the ground.

=)

01-04-2009, 05:16 PM	#1 (permalink)
sweet_tna Being good is overrated Join Date: Sep 2007 Posts: 4,221 Location: Poconos, PA Status: The boss of Mr. Sweet Swing Lifestyle Name:Sweet_tna	No more training wheels! I finally took the plunge and performed oral on another woman. Okay, for a lot of you, that would not be an earth-shattering revelation. But I'd been driving myself (and Mr. Sweet) crazy for about a year or so. You see, it was only about a year ago when I realized that I did, in fact, find women sexually attractive and wanted to explore those feelings. I guess I'm a late bloomer. (shrugs) Anyway, I've had several experiences where I was the benefactor of other ladies' attention, but never quite felt ready to return the favor . . . I was too afraid of being a disappointment. Either I'd be really bad at it, or decide after trying that I didn't like it after all, and I just couldn't bring myself to take that risk. So the "training wheels" stayed on. Then a few months ago, I began to work up the nerve to finally try it and . . . BAM! I got "pussy-blocked" by my own husband! It was completely unintentional, especially as he had no idea what I was thinking. Talk about frustrating!! Then real life interfered, and we were in a bit of a swinging drought. The drought ended with a bang . . . or so I'm told. Mr. Sweet and I hosted a Halloween party, but everyone ended up drinking too much (thanks to some extra strength jello shots). A bunch of us ladies ended up in a tangle on the bed, and at some point I remember looking lady's pussy and thinking, "oh what the hell." I was told we seemed to enjoy ourselves. (SIGH) So of course, I beat myself up for losing control that way. NOT for finally taking that leap, but for being stupid enough to do it when I was plastered and unable to be fully aware of what I was doing or remember the experience. As far as I was concerned, I was back where I started. I decided it just wasn't meant to be, and tabled the idea of exploring my bi side any further. For New Year's Eve, we had a nice, quiet evening planned with a couple we'd been playing "grab-ass" with for the better part of the year. We ended up playing a special version of Uno with them, and during the other hubby's turn, he earned a sexual favor. He requested that his wife (also bi curious and fairly inexperienced) go down on me. When Mr. Sweet's turn came to receive a favor, he requested that I go down on the other wife. For this particular version of the game, favors only last 20 seconds. So Mr. Sweet figured it was a good opportunity. Later on, the game ended up being forgotten in favor (like the pun?) of playtime. This time, it was the other hubby who requested I give oral attentions to his wife. And thus, the training wheels flew off. Now for the big question . . . did I enjoy it? For the most part, yes. I am very attracted to this lady, and I think she enjoyed it--which for me, is really important. I had NO idea what the hell I was doing, though. But (and you knew this was coming, right?) I think for me, FF play will only ever be an appetizer, so to speak. At the end of the night, I'm still going to want a MAN to play with. Also, I'd have preferred more foreplay with her . .. kissing, touching each others' bodies, etc. before "diving in". While I'm relieved to finally know on which side of the "bi fence" I sit, nothing really changes for me/us. I'm still standing firmly on the ground. =)
	__________________ I'd rather go to hell for doing something I enjoyed than heaven wondering what it's like. Last edited by sweet_tna; 01-04-2009 at 07:29 PM.