[lustylearning]

Food for thought. I understand and agree with these concepts. I cannot say I achieve them. I am a selfish person, fundamentally. I seek my own happiness. I have strong desires. And while I understand that my happiness should never depend on others, even my primary, I know that it is the involvement of others in my life that contributes to my personal happiness. I can say for instance, that if my husband were to come to the conclusion that his happiness was best served by dissolving our relationship, I could logically let him go, for the sake of his happiness, but I know I would be overwhelmed by sorrow because of the loss to me. I would recover. I used to think I wouldn't, but some wisdom comes with age, I suppose.

I wish I could say that I don't have a jealous bone in my body, but it is my confidence in my relationship that allows me the comfort I feel - it is not a profound mastery of my inner world.

Oh well. I'm not done growing yet.