[blue.freckles]

well after many months about talking about "taking the plunge", my wife and i had a SUPER soft swing this last saturday...

we went out to a vanilla club with some friends this last saturday and my wife (pink.freckles on here) and one of my best buddies and i have been joking about messing around for awhile now..

anyway, here we go:

Pink dresssed up really cute, (she got a new outfit) so her, Friend (i'll call him this) and I met our other friends at the club.. after a few cocktails it was decided that we should dance (we're all very dancey people).. Friend became handsy with all the ladies in our group, but seemed extremely focused on Pink... the night continued this way for several hours... towards the end of the night, i told Pink that i thought she wasnt showing me enough attention.. Friend made out with my ex girlfriend who is a good friend to all of us and they have a brief history with each other.. dancing continued until close, Pink continued to not really pay attention to me..

On the way to the car, i jokingly said "Pink, you should sit in the back of the car and make out with Friend" but she sat next to me in the passenger seat and smiled.. about half way home, Friend started massaging Pink's back and then started feeling her breasts over her coat; she seemed very ok with this behavior.. he jokingly tried to kiss her but her seat was inclined too much.. he popped the recling button and she just laughed and leaned back... he leaned forward and they started making out, her smiling the entire time.. he was pretty sloshy and feeling confident so he once again reached for her breasts and went inside her coat this time and then inside her bra... they made out the entire way home..

once we got home and parked, Friend and i got sick once the cold air hit us, me more for the reason that we mixed entirely too many different kinds of drinks and my stomach felt unsettled, and him because he was drunk..

anyway, we got into our house and i turned on the tv (i didnt know what else to do! haha) and started watching shows that i had taped previously in the week... their kissing continued until Friend needed to go and be sick again in the kitchen sink... while he was there, i said to Pink "go put some stockings on".. she jumped up and ran to the room without giving it a second thought and returned before Friend was finished being sick.. she sat next to me and upon his return, he was awed that her legs now had his favorite sexy woman adornments on...

they continued to kiss and he was feeling her breasts through her shirt (she changed into short little spanky's, a tank top and the stockings) and then in her shirt.. he tried feeling her pussy through her shorts but she pushed his hand away... one more time he tried it while her hand was there, but then she moved her hand so that it was around his neck... his hand tried one more time and she let it linger there for a moment before she said "no no Friend" but in a kind, flirty way...

kissing continued to happen and then i took her shirt off.. his eyes were bulging at this point before he went in for more smooching.. then, out of bhe blue, stupid me says "well, if you're just going to let him play with them without seeing them, you're being too unfair" so i reached up and unclipped her bra... she became defensive immediately and the kissing pretty much ended there... he tried to go up her leg one more time but after she shunned him, i said to her "time for me to have some fun in the bedroom" and he smiled and told us to go in there and have fun...

we went into the bedroom and it old her she was a bad girl and when i went to feel her, she was drenched (and she never gets drenched anymore)... i got her naked and went down on her and in between licks and sucks, i told her that she was my whore and she agreed.. after she was really getting into it, i told her that i was going to wake up friend and have him come in and fuck her.. she said that she needed to be fucked.. i pressed on and told her that she was a whore and that if i got Friend to fuck her, then things would change and that she would have to fuck anyone i wanted her to.. she agreed that she would and that she is already... after several more minutes of fucking around with her and telling her that she better be ready for him, i decided that i couldnt go through with it, and i fucked her myself...

i couldnt sleep that night, and i felt like i was upset about something.. i was fine seeing her fuck around, i really was, but i told her the next morning that i was upset that i didnt feel included... not while at the club nor while back at home... she also told me that she was only "playing along" with the intention to actually fuck him and that she knew that i wouldnt go get him.. i tell you friends, the look in her eyes meant business and she wanted to fuck.. i think she got defensive on several "facts" that happened after i told her i was upset that i wasnt included enough, and she shelled up (its her style of fighting as im more confrontational and she is more meek).. i ensured her that i was not mad at her, but rather upset that i was not included.. she also told me that the reason why she didnt pay enough attention to me while at the club was because since we're so new to this, she didnt know how much attention should be shown to any party involved (even though later she admitted that she had no intentions of messing around with him before it actually happened).

while talking about the issue further, she said that she didnt think she should do that with Friend again because she was worried that either he would become too attached or that he wouldnt seek the "friendship" of another woman if we went out and the 3 of us continued to mess around.. she also said that if there are too many expectations from any party, then if she didnt want to do anything, she'd feel pressure...

also, she said that she wanted me to be the person to "get some" this time so she could test her ability to take it in or not...

yesterday, however, she seemed to go back to a "if there arent expectations and the moment was right, i cant say that i wouldnt make out with Friend again if you were ok with it.."

hmm

ok.. so i guess my questions are these:

do you think she really wanted to go further but since she felt like i was pushing too much, she backed off?

do you think she really wants to mess around some more but doesnt want to tell me because she thinks i'd get upset again?

since Friend is vanilla and has NO clue about this lifestyle, do you think his involvement with us could deter him from seeking out his own mate(s)?

how do i avoid feeling left out? (i must admit that i am about 30-40 lbs heavier than i normally am due to a myriad of emotional issues currently going on with me, and i'm usually the confident one who has no problem flirting with women or men alike)

she told me, while we were talking, that she wished Friend would have told her that her attempts to dress sexy and trendy had worked and that she looked cute.. later on however, she rebuked that statement and told me that she just wished "any guy" would have commented on the cuteness of her outfit.. why did she go back on what she said?

she told me that when they were making out and i tried rubbing her legs and stomach, she felt like if i put her my hands on her then she felt like she should switch to me.. is this out of guilt? obligation? etc?

anyway, i hope you guys liked the story and any feedback would be appreciated