[dgoody1234]

I will go straight to the point, since reading your posts you all obviously have a lot of incite into what I should, or should not do.

1. Married 11 years.
2. 5 kids.
3. Strong sexual drive by both of us. Do it 3-4 times a week.
4. Smoke and drink 3-4 times a week (a clue?).
5. Wife was a virgin when we married.
6. I was a sailor (say no more).
7. Her family was hard core Christian.
8. Since being together has seen that evangelical life is not for us.
9. Wife watched first porn at 19 -- saw two females and had orgasm.
10. Since being together I have seen her be very strong towards other women when she drinks.
11. Gives me fantasies in bed from time to time about another woman and me being with her and the other woman.
12. Next day says -- "don't talk about it."
13. Sometimes likes watching porn -- only if drinking usually.
14. During porn session will get really wild and wants another woman to go down on her.
15. At first was a bit aprehensive about me being with another woman -- now after 11 years of marriage, sometimes says she would be ok, as long as she gets licked and rubbed, and kissed (only happens when she is drinking).
16. Have asked her about swinging -- says, "it will only destroy our marriage."
17. I want to be with another woman.
18. I love women, so am afraid I could actually get feelings towards another woman -- she knows this about me, and is afraid as well.
19. I am a "free spirit" -- wife knows this and is always guarded against letting me go.
20. I have fantasies about her being with another man (couples only) but am afraid I am too jealous and would be angry if I saw my virgin bride be with another man.
21. A couple of years ago I almost called an escort -- at first wife said no, but then let me make the call??? Does she want this and just needs me to take control? Is this similar to when we I was in High School and the girl said no, then grabbed me to keep going? I am confused??
I hung up the phone and didn't do it, but thought the wife was intrigued.

Anyway, I think you get the idea. What do you all think? Thoughts? Comments?

Obviously I know that most of this seems to come down to alcohol, but I wonder sometimes if alcohol is not the social lubricant some people need to be honest about who they really are.

Any help would be appreciated.