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Old 04-28-2003, 08:36 AM   #6 (permalink)
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This is going to sound pretty silly.

I used to wake up the next morning feeling absolutely terrible ... OMG what did I do... etc. lots of guilt feelings, I would cry I felt so bad.

Then I did something maybe not so silly -- I became the designated driver. Alcohol could never again be blamed for bad judgement, I accepted that what I did, I did with a clear head and I did willingly - enthusiastically AND I woke the next day sleep deprived but not hungover. It made all the difference for me.

Alcohol DID NOT truly play a factor early on in our experiences ... I was never THAT drunk but I would wake the next morning and wonder how I got talked into whatever and if my judgement had been impaired.

Now people really wonder about me I'm usually the wildest girl in the place ... carrying a water bottle. and I've lost all my tolerance for alcohol. Was it a general aclimitization to the lifestyle or was it my giving up alcohol in swinger settings?... does it matter?

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