Welcome to the Swingers Board
I was just wondering how you feel about things today. In your last line you stated that you were confused at this time. Honestly, I don't think I understand everything either. So telling ya your wrong wouldn't work without an explanation. I think many have given good advice so far because they offer something to think about. Once again like I always say, this lifestyle brings out how we feel about not only our partners, our relationships.... but ourselves as well.
If you wouldn't mind I hope you come back and offer some insight to some of the already posted questions and thoughts. I've never in my life minded looking at something I don't understand. Thanks for posting here on the board. Your insight might help others some day with this type of alternative lifestyle