 Re: My Current Predicament
I remember you. You write very well and generally sound very mature for your age. You knowingly selected a path less traveled and discovered for yourself WHY it's less traveled. Take some time and really think about what happened and perhaps why it happened like that. It sounds like everyone contributed somewhat equally to the drama (and your role is especially noteworthy). Think about how the outcome could have been different if you had been in control of your emotions and behaved differently. You're not easily deterred from your objective, so I think there's a high probability you'll give it another try. With the lessons both of you can learn from this encounter, you MAY enjoy success in the future (or you MAY crash and burn, again).
My guess, based on this chapter is that neither of you are really ready for this kind of activity - and that's quite OK. Keep it as a fun fantasy until you're both ready for the next level. Explore some alternatives that are less likely to invoke unpleasant emotions (not only for yourselves, but for the others too).
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