Oh man, that stinks on ice! I'd be mortified in your position, too. And it could very well happen to me, as I not only talk to myself in the car, but have childhood friend who would never, ever understand/accept my decision to participate in the lifestyle. ((Hugs))
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Originally Posted by intuition897  She called the house and asked for me, actually. Mr. intuition asked me if I had gotten hold of her when I got back in. In the meantime, it took me about 2 minutes to stop hyperventilating and shaking and call her. I tried to keep the loud, high-pitch squeal out of my voice as I spoke, and I hope it worked. I started out by explaining that I was listening to a recording from my workshop that day (they brought speakers in and everything), and I must've accidentally hit the dial button. My phone has a speaker feature, so that sort of works. "Yeah," she said, "I heard some sort of...conversation...and I kept saying 'Hello?!' but..." I said the headphones were plugged in, but I didn't have them in, so I didn't hear her (I didn't mention that it had a mic!). "Oh" she said, "yeah, it was...WEIRD stuff...what kind of workshop was it?" I explained that it was a workshop on Positive Spaces for people who are in alternative lifestyles. She's laughing nervously throughout our conversation, but not enough. I said, "well if I'm going to call you, I guess I'd better say something, eh?" and I proceeded to make chit chat for a bit. Probably about a minute later, she says, "Well I'd better not run your cell phone bill up." and we said goodbye and hung up. My impression was that she was freaked out and didn't want to talk to me.
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Yeah, I get the impression that she knew it was you, knew your excuse was b.s. and was a bit freaked. BUT, she's also probably very willing to accept the excuse because the alternative (for someone of her very conservative mindset) is almost unthinkable.
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I'm just trying to maintain my grip and say the mantra, "It is what it is." No point worrying about it. I'm not doing anything wrong, and it would be unfortunate for everyone to find out because I KNOW it would change the way people look at us, but the bottom line is...I'm not ashamed. Just scared. Lots of crazies out there. And it's not me that I'm worried about; it's my kids. I don't want them turned against us or thinking that their parents are sick.
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Absolutely. You really DON'T have anything to be ashamed of. And I'm betting that you've raised your kids to be accepting of others, so they would probably be just fine if they found out.
A friend once told me, "Everything works out. Things may not work out the way you planned, but they always work out."
So hang in there, Intuition. You'll get through this.
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