I have spent hours reading different posts on here, and it’s left me feeling like, either I am a man stuck in a woman’s body or some kind of strange person. I know that for the most it’s the man who is the main one to introduce the idea of swinging, but for me it’s the total opposite. I have always had an outgoing view on sex, and maybe I am wrong but I don’t associate sex with love. When I am with my Hubby we “make love” (to me it’s not sex).
My main problem is finding ways to introduce ideas without it coming across, as I am some kind of nymph, pervert or even worse my Hubby thinking he is not enough. We have done full swap and it was great, but I must be greedy because I know deep down I want more. I remember thinking that I’d love to sit back and watch the two men giving their full attention to the other female, then getting both of their attention, Does that mean I am some sort of pervert?
I’d love to be able to say to my Hubby hey why don’t we try this… but I always panic wondering if I will freak him out, I am not saying we cant communicate because we can, just he is not as open minded as I am. I seem to spend more and more time fantasying about MMF and FFM, but I really need to find a way of bringing this subject up without saying the wrong thing or explaining it badly.
So far most of the things I asked him about, he’s responded in a good way to but if I ask about if he has any fantasies he’d like to explore, he always says he doesn’t. Bringing new ideas into the discussion has always come down to me except on a very few occasions when he out of the blue says something.
I have probably not worded this well, or made my questions clear but I have always been bad with my own problems.
