I want to thank each and every person who responded to my post.
Naturally, there are more circumstances involved, but at the end of the day they are only part of a story. The facts remain the same.
An agreement. It gets broken.
I've had a few days to come to grips with this, and what keeps coming back are the simple facts.
Yes, i do like this guy. I like myself more.
I'll miss him. But I would miss myself more.
Yeah, I'm sad. And really, really mad. As I would be with anyone i trusted who in anyway took advantage of a trust.
At the very least, there is a lack of integrity in this whole thing, and I will be the first to step up and claim some of that - I led myself to believe with a little time, things would change, be different... and doing so, gave away my power, and by not admitting it to myself, lost a lot of self-respect along with it. Where's the integrity in that???? This, inspired by the last post which was correct stating what i couldnt - that i was trying to get at the ethics of the thing, find out whether i was way out of line, or not. What i should Always Know Anyway. (and believe me, i'm looking at that!)
Mea Culpa.
He was a fun playmate to waste my time with. But that's all, at the end of the day. (get to ask myself alot of questions here) And my time is waaay tooo precious to give him any more.
I'm untying all the knots and tying up loose ends.
I appreciate every single response, and if anyone else wants to post - cool. I'd love it. I'll be checking.
But the question has been reduced to:
1. Best way to confront an absent SO (B)?
2. Most creative way to leave an absent SO (B)?
And, is there anyone out there that would be interested in having conversations with me about the lifestyle (when I'm ready again to explore - i'm in theory stage, definitely, right now) as a single? How to...?
You are
all really wonderful. I thank you. Especially Mr. Truelove, for his off-forum willingness to guide. Openly and Honestly. You, especially, Rock.
Namaste,
Juniper