[Happypair]

You are probably quite correct that the degree of guilt you felt/feel is largely related to the fact that you had never before been with someone other than your husband. This is a major departure from societal norms, religious teaching and in general the rules that most of us have lived by until we break free. Your comment about finally being able to look your husband in the eye is interesting. That seems to say that you feel you have betrayed him. But you also say that he is supportive, that he loved watching you. The two things that give swingers the most difficulty are jealousy and dishonesty. Neither of these seems to be an issue with the two of you. You and your hubby obviously communicate well, another big plus in the lifestyle. Ask yourself these three questions: Was anyone hurt by your actions? Was anyone deceived? Was anyone jealous? If not, you have nothing to feel guilty about. Welcome to the lifestyle. We say proceed cautiously, but proceed.